You really think you'll only do one or two twiceTwice-a-day a week? Honestly? And you want someone here to say - "yeah, you can do it no problem." Welcome backBack pain - low
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Amen. You never even left. You are not even focused on recoveryRecovery position - series. All this time and attentionAttention deficit hyperactivity disorder (adhd) you have recieved here and you still want to abuseAlcoholism
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Drug-induced hypertension? Well, be my guest! Remember that you have a God given choice concerning what you do in life. No one can say yes or no for you. The choice is only your's to make.



Best of luck!

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Drug-induced hypertension once in awhile without trouble? I do not plan to ever use them again. If I got the urgeUrge incontinence I want to be able to make it pefectly clearClear by design
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Drug-induced hypertension remains the same. I hate them and never plan on using again. However, I would like to be reasured that I shouldn't "dabble" with oxycotin or any other substanceDrug abuse. You see, this is the firstFirst progesterone mc10
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Drug-induced hypertension. So of corse I am going to have questions but thank you mike and j.b. for your screwed up support! Why is it that a person can not be honest with a bunch of people who have been through the same thing? I am just saying, isn't it important for me to convey ALL of my feelings if I plan on making this work? I have considered going backBack pain - low
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Good words JB - truly. I forgot to mention Chad - PercocetPercocet 10/650 HAS OXYCODONE IN IT. THE SAME INGREDIENT THAT IS IN OXYCONTIN. Know what you're taking man. Your "recoveryRecovery position - series" from Oxy is over. Tomorrow is day ONE again. Sounds to me like you're going to fill the other RX today too. That's cool. Don't feel guilty per se. Just take care of yourself. You'll get there. But one SURE way of NOT getting there is by rationalizing your use in the way that you are - "Everyone is different" "I can handle one or two a week". No you can't. You couldn't before could you? You're just rationalizing using again. We've all done it. It's all part of it. Just DON'T F'N DRIVE WHEN YOU'RE HIGH MAN! Don't kill a loved one of mine because you're "having fun". Stay at home, walk, ride a bike - whatever. But please don't drive. If you start using again, you will get withdrawalDelirium tremens symptoms again, you will "recover" again, and you will question whether you can go backBack pain - low
Back strain treatment to using with immunity and impunity. None of us have made it there yet in many thousands of years of addictionDrug abuse and dependence - but hey - we all keep trying to it seems. Take care of yourself, and remember that other people are livingAdvanced care directives around you, trying to make it through their day too - let them have the same opportunity. Thanks - Mike P.

I wasn't trying to come down on you. Sorry if it came across that way. You are at a crossroad. That's all. Which way do you go?

Throw the script in the trash, better yet burnAirway burn
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Welcome backBack pain - low
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Drug-induced hypertension. Hey, I love them, too. But to say that you took the percs just to see what they’d do, as if you were running a research project as a public service – commonCommon cold! You’re quite the comedian … You can never hope to quit or control your use or whatever it is you want to do until you get honest about why you do what you do. If I had them, I’d use them and there would be no doubt in my mind why. If you’re going to get high, then get high. But don’t talk about “dabbling’ and “seeing what they’ll do.” Like you don’t know what they’ll do … I’m laughing as I type this. You know why you do it. It’s the same reason I do it. Enjoy your weekend. Just be honest about it!

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Drug-induced hypertension taking it is like my controlled drinking, it simply doesn't work.



You may get away with it for a few weeks, but the urgeUrge incontinence to get high will get stronger as you go and you will do it more often until full relapse is achieved.



If you don't want to go through the shakes again I sugggest stopping forever! The longer time you put between yourself and the last high the less the craving will be.

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Kidney stones but you have to understand everybody HAS been where you are now. That is what I call the sneaky part of this disease. The addict in our mind starts to say "hey I've been 13 days without anything maybe I can take them successfully" or "I've never gotten into real trouble taking these so I can't be that bad". I don't want to say I told you so about your script but....If you really think about it how could you possibly let them go to waste by getting rid of the script. I know for a fact if I had a script it would be filled and consumed and it's been 5 months. Part of getting clean is to take the necessary steps to close the connections to obtaining. Tell you Dr. the truth so he won't give you anymore scripts. That was one of the all time hardest things I ever had to do, but I did it in the beginning when I felt strong, cause I knew the weaknessWeakness lay ahead. This is where you need outside help and a sponser who will make you call them daily to discuss these kind of things. It's such a process and you are only starting. I do know one fact that I have heard over and over again..Everytime you attempt to stop using it gets harder to do. You lose some of your drive and willpower. I thank you for your honesty you could have taken those meds and never came backBack pain - low
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Once again you guys come through! Ok, so it's friday night and I would love to do something (drugsChemical dependence - resources
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Drug-induced hypertension are thrown in our facesFace pain every day. Coke, meth, shrooms and every pill out there is available to us. So, I feel that every time we shoot something down we obtain strength. I can not currently change our location, but I can have the strenth to resist. The precriptions are a very touchy subject. Like I said, they are due to be filled any day now and I know the temptation they will bring. Hey AlAls - resources
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School-age children development that will hopefully consume some of this spare time. Sitting around (workmans comp) is the hardist thing to do. The temtation is always there. If I was laying sheet rock, I'd be fine. Who am I kidding. Do you realize how quick you could do a house high. OK, that was a bad joke but I have to keep it light. I understand more now that I am straight. I use to get very confused on the Oxy's. I often wonder if you guys get tangeled up in your thoughts on them. To make a never ending story short....I feel better each day I do not use. I will not lie though...The temtation is so very strong. I think that is what keeps us going. You know what, I did feel the cold sweatsSweat electrolytes
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Well, Chadster, how's the oxy flowing? You have now discovered the "best" part of relapse and one of the reasons recovering addicts are so tempted at your stage: When you're system is freshly cleansed of drugsChemical dependence - resources
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But let's get honest firstFirst progesterone mc10
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Chad,

Filling that script is like putting a mound of coke on your coffee table and telling yourself you will just do one line of coke before you go to work. IT AINT GONNA HAPPEN!



I am not saying I would tearTears again gel drops
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many of us have "been there...done that"



So quit kidding yourself...if you fill the script..you will do them up..and not just one or two here and there..it might start that way for a week or so....but pretty soon you will have a bad day emotionally and seek the oxy to relieve your foul mood..



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13 days clean is fantastic...but think where your mind would be if you had tossed the scripts and then detoxed...right now you would be feeling like you kicked oxy's ass and you didnt need them....but they are still there..and no one..I repeat no one..can escape the power they have over you...



The bottom line is that you can do this if you want..but be honest with yourself and seek some help as  fooling yourself wont get you clean.

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i just stumbled into this room and after reading all the writting about the things i love oxy perc lortabLortab
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