Chad what's up? after posting 10 times a day you disappeared.Hope you didn't use those scripts did you? Chad,check in buddy.

hi, its a long process, at least it has been for me several times.But now I am on day four and its finally starting to get better.Its still hard to keep from using, but its better than the alternative.Some people take longer than others depending on how much you were taking.Myself, I went from oxycontin to lortabLortab
Lortab asa,then I weened down on the lortabLortab
Lortab asa over a 5 day period.But I had help,I gave my pills to someone who helped me from taking them all at once.Good luck Ken

Something you said jumped right out at me. You stated that you do not feel good when you take he meds. Are you saying that they don't take the painAbdominal pain
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I was chewing 320mg a day of oxycontin and was really getting strng out. I made the decision to not chew them anymore. I have for the past three days been swallowingSwallowing difficulty
Swallowing pain or burning whole 1 40 mg as soon as the alarm goes off, and get up about 30 minuts later. I feel fine until about noon, then take another 40. I was taking them {chewing} before for the euphoric feeling, but also have footAthlete's foot
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Swallowing pain or burning them whole I don't get the euphoria, but still get some energy and no painAbdominal pain
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Chronic pain - resources. I miss the euphoria, but I am feeling 90% better mentally. I am alot more alert and can actually enjoy people. There is some withdrawl {sweatingSweating
Sweating - absent while sleepingSleeping difficulty} but so far hasn't been too bad. I am scheduled to go to treatment tuesday, and still may go, but I made the arrangements togo while I was still chewing them, and now these past three days am feeling much better, so I'm not sure what I will do now. I guess I'll keep up what I'm doing until tuesday and decide then. I know the person I talked with to schedule going is going to say I'm just rationalizing and need to go, but the choice is up to me. If I can continue to function the way I have these past few days, then I really don't want to stop. I might suggest you try this, yet don't want to encourage you to keep using if you need to quit. Just sharing my experience. I  wish good results for you.

I answered you on the other thread, but it occured to me that if you're getting the runs from the oxy withdrawalDelirium tremens, you could be dehydrated, which will make you feel listless. It might be contributng to it. Buy some ImodiumImodium
Imodium a-d (over the counter) for the runs. It works. Why suffer?

Chad I know when I stop posting is when I'M using.BackBack pain - low
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Human papillomavirus vaccine dude.Better luck next time.

Ok, you got me! Filled the scripts. Big mistake! I did two oxy 20's for three days and felt like ****! What a mistake! I will try not to ever use that **** again!



Here is what happend,

I was doing great (18 days clean) then on the 31st of last month someone came up to me and said that you can fill your perscriptions a day in advance. So, stupid me rushed down to the pharmacy at 9am. Whant to know something? I actually threw up before I walked in to fill the scripts. What the hell was that? Anyway I stoped at the gasAdjustable gastric banding
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Gastrectomy was in before I sped off home. Woke the girlfriend up and BAMM, we did em. I don't know what happened but I was so sickSick sinus syndrome I felt like I wanted to throw up all day. I certainly didn't enjoy the feeling at all. I did them the second day and felt the same way. I think that we finally enjoyed them for like three hours on sunday watching football. Other then that, they sickend us! Yet we continued to use them. Go figure? I don't know why someone would use something that made them so sickSick sinus syndrome. I even threw up my burger king (it sucked anyway).



So, here I am again...

The good news is that we didn't have to go through detox again. I guess someone was willing to give us another chance. I can't understand why I broke down and used, I have no excuse other then I am weak. I can however say that I will try not to ever do this again. If anything I am glad that we had such a misreable time cause I believe that will help keep us away. I got rid of the rest of the pills so the temtation should be less.



I don't feel like a loser, I just feel like I let myself down. I now know the disructive force that this **** can do to you. I even got into a pretty serious fight while on the pills over something very stupid. I would like to blame the medicationAllergic reactions to medication
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haven't you noticed there are no told you so people here.Buddy we have been THROUGH it. there is no shame with this thing.i could not have thrown the scripts away.i'm as sickSick sinus syndrome as adog today and no script for days.when you write here people show concern,even worry. when you dissappear people hope it's because your'e doing better.but itis usually not the case.when i have a full bottle of oxys this is the last place i come. i admit it.nobody is going to judge you man.i've been on this roller coaster so long.i'll be clean 5 days and someone comes around with some.do what you got to do man.you seem to have a sense of humour so don't take any teasing the wrong way. this is so serious, humour is needed at times. keep us posted as many times a day as needed. there is no FAULT in this matter.good luck to you and yours brother. :  )

Thanks for the info Tom.  I went ahead and bought some ImodiumImodium
Imodium a-d..am trying like hell to get plenty of fluids down me but it isn't easy.  Last night was day 2...wound up breaking a lamp and clearing off a table.  Woke up on the floor without a clue as to what happened.  Has anyone else had this happen?

Hi Angie...yes I took them for chronicAcute vs. chronic conditions
Addison’s disease
Anemia of chronic disease
Cause of chronic bronchitis
Chronic bronchitis
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Chronic fatigue syndrome
Chronic fatigue syndrome - resources
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Chronic lymphocytic leukemia - microscopic view
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Depression in children after long term use anyway..have you heard of this?  Yes, the meds did definately stop the painAbdominal pain
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Chronic pain - resources and made me feel FANTASTIC for many many years.  I detoxed last October from all the methadone etc etc...made it until February 21st when I walked into a new home my fiance and I just bought and found him dead!  Yes...I started using again and of course all the doctors believed I had a valid reason to be on the meds and stated I'd be on them for life.  I don't get that euphoric feeling anymore unless I smash the oxcontin tabs like I've heard so many others have done...geez and I thought I was the only one. I was definately trying to escape reality at that point.  Now I just want to get off the meds and get some strength backBack pain - low
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I know I need to tell the new Dr. I'll be seeing everything about the fact that my painAbdominal pain
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I wonder if all people with chronicAcute vs. chronic conditions
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Thank you to all of you that are responding...I really appreaciate it and can use the support.

Take Care

I found the doctor that I'll be seeing on Monday listed with the AMA.  Just need to tell him the truth and pray he doesn't tell me stay on this garbage.

Hey bud, welcome backBack pain - low
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err ... you want to run the found-my-fiance-dead part by us again? You breezed by that like it was just another bad day. Don't you think that has something to do with all of this?

Anyway, the weaknessWeakness and the clumsiness sound like my own opiate withdrawalDelirium tremens experiences. I think it's really listlessness plus you're really not into what you're doing, and it translates into clumsy movements. Very, very familiar ... it would all vanish in an instant if you used again, not that I'm advising you to do that (I'm not advising you not to, either). You must realize that oxycodone is one step from morphine/heroinDrug abuse country. And you were combining it with a pretty good jolt of Valium. That's a very powerful, and in my opinion, dangerous combo for a lot of reasons. You're probably feeling the effects of getting off both of those drugsChemical dependence - resources
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Drug-induced hypertension in the pharmacy. Just a thought ...

Regarding my fiance...he was staying in Sacto to work on the house I/We had bought and I went backBack pain - low
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Addison’s disease
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Insulin aspart-insulin aspart protamine
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So YES Tom...it definately has to do with the problems I'm facing now regarding addictionDrug abuse and dependence/depressionAdolescent depression
Bipolar disorder
Depression
Depression - elderly
Depression - resources
Depression among the elderly
Depression and heart disease
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Depression and the menstrual cycle
Depression in children.  It's not easy talking about this.

The doctors put me on Methadone in 1995 for the painAbdominal pain
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Hydrocodone hd
Hydrocodone-ibuprofen
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Oral cancer watering...feeling like withdrawls which I thought was crazy..