hi,,you have come to the right place and you will get alot of support and advice here......from what I can tell you are not taking an astronomical amount but it will escalate over time..while you can do it do you think you can taper off the drugsChemical dependence - resources
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Today has been a bad day. I ran out of pills.....I'm so depressed and have a yucky feeling. I knew this was coming. All I want to do is crawl into bed and hope I can sleepCentral sleep apnea
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Hope everyone else is having a better day than I......that wouldn't be hard to beat at this point.

Then my ex picks today of all days to show up and act like a jackass. Geeeeeeeeeeeze.

Thankyou for posting on my subject.......I am still new at this. I do not know if I want to tell anyone else about my secret. Is that not strange? I can tell complete strangers about this mess and not my loved-ones. If they knew I would be an absolute failure in their eyesAmblyopia
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Hi all



Don't mean to break the thread here but I have a question. I posted a question 9/17 under Vicoden Cravings. I noticed today that Dr. Steve replied 9/23. Could someone please look at this. Is this reply to me? Because if so could someone tell me HOW THE HELL I STOPPED EARLY IN THE ADDICTIONDrug abuse and dependence PROCESS WHEN I HAVE BEEN ADDICTED FOR 22 YEARS. I mean no disrespect Dr. Steve but I think I was way past early on anything, except my refills sir.



Shea

Hi Katie



Just want you to know I am thinking of you today. Just remember at least you know what to expect and hopefully you know the worse will be over in 2-3 days. You are in my thoughts and prayers as I know this is a tough time. Remember how many people are here for you. Are you using Thomas's recipe and/or 5htp? Do you have valium or clonidine? You will get through this. Keep us posted.



Shea

Hi.....I was (still am) doing the same thing as you. Calling in refills for someone else in my familyBirth control and family planning
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If there is anyway you can stop now, DO IT before this train gets out of control.

This forum is a good place to come...lots of support here.

Hi. I went backBack pain - low
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Hi everyone,

Well, I had a hell of a day yesterday. While trying to get the phone quickly, I bashed my headHead and face reconstruction
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It hurt. A lot.  I forgot what real, cryingColic and crying
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I debated for over an hour, then decided it was ridiculous of me to sit in extreme painAbdominal pain
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I was really nervousAged nervous tissue
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I thought it would trigger a desire to use more, but it seems to have only reinforced my desire to not take it at all.  I'm very thankfull for that..I was so scared it would make me want to go right backBack pain - low
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I felt I needed to tell you guys what happened, mostly to keep myself totally honest. This is the one place where I get to be completely honest, and it would have felt wrong to not tell you guys this.



thanks for listening.

love,

WW

Hi Girl!

Gosh, i'm sorry about your headHead and face reconstruction
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I'm glad it worked out the way it did for you though.  I'll tell you a story...

Last year in September, i had to go away to california for a work sales meetings.  I had been taking oxys, but only very small amounts at that time.  My husband told me over and over to make sure i brought some with me 'just in case' i went into withdrawalDelirium tremens.  I brought them, but refused to take anything.  I went to my parents house the firstFirst progesterone mc10
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Stay strong, and almost 'remember' the yucky feeling!!!!

Good luck girl!!

Lv Jenny

Thomas ,I finally got the courage to post my story,only after about an hour of wroting and posting it 2 ,the next morning it was gone?I know it posted cause I re read it afterwards!Any clue?I had a  horible weekened and seems to be getting worse !I remember you posting that I'd aways have a freind here ,so that's where I turned!I'm at my wits end with this addictionDrug abuse and dependence and no support because no one has a clue!Please help if you can!Thanks in advance!Don't want to go into my story till I hear from you!

Is there life after opiates? I never even got out of my pj's today......haven't combed my hairHair loss
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I know the physicalPhysical activity
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I think getting divorced, going thru menapause and having to worry about going backBack pain - low
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Well, backBack pain - low
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Thanks for that story Jenny..hey, its really good to see you backBack pain - low
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Jenifer, for some reason, posts do disappear sometimes, I'm not sure why.  Maybe there is some censorship, but I don't think so. Try making your post again. You will always have friends here Jenifer..we all care.



Katie...I don't know what to say..I think that in order to faceFace pain life after opiates, to deal with the mentalMental retardation
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I do think there is life after opiates. Happier, healthier life. Just never give up hope, no matter what, and keep doing what ever you need to do to take really good care of yourself. That may sound trite, but it is not as easy as it sounds.  



love,

WW



ps  I'm leaving tomorrow for a week, so I won't be on the forum for a while. I'll probably get another chance to post tomorrow before I go though.

WW



Have a great trip, I would say break a legLeg lengthening/shortening
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Shin splints but...



I responded (in depth) to your post in the XanaxXanax
Xanax xr thread. Nice of you to inquire into my health - I'm working on it.



Frank Lee

I am sorry to hear that you got hurt.  Remember...Quality of Life.   No one should have to live with painAbdominal pain
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Thank you for those words Lea, they are very comforting.



Fortunately, today the painAbdominal pain
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It's wierd....I hate being an addict. I hate that I sat there and obsessed for an hour over whether to take a painAbdominal pain
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At least this is showing me how precious my recoveryRecovery position - series is to me.  Just a few months ago, I never thought I'd want to, never mind be able to, get off the meds.  Now, I dread getting caught up in that cycle again.  



I want to get to the point where the meds are just not an issue anymore!



You folks are such a godsend. Thank you for being there, and accepting my ramblings and my confusionConfusion
Delirium.  



lots of love,

WW