I'm not totally sure about this, but it seems to me that your babyBabies and heat rashes
Baby feeding patterns has NO CHANCE of being born addicted to anything just because its father is. Now, if you were addicted to heroinDrug abuse, let's say, then the babyBabies and heat rashes
Baby feeding patterns would indeed be born addicted. That's why some states, like South Carolina, make it a criminal offense, a felony, for a pregnant woman to take illegal drugsChemical dependence - resources
Chemotherapy
Drug abuse
Drug abuse and dependence
Drug abuse first aid
Drug allergies
Drug induced hypertension
Drug rash on the back
Drug rash, tegretol
Drug signs and teenagers
Drug-induced hypertension.



Francois

Hi Unsecure,

     I was in a similar situation 24 yrs ago. I cleaned up my act when I found out I was pregnant and gave birthBirth control and family planning to a normal healthy boy. He father was addicted to and quite fond of several substancesDrug abuse but generally in utero drugChemical dependence - resources
Chemotherapy
Drug abuse
Drug abuse and dependence
Drug abuse first aid
Drug allergies
Drug induced hypertension
Drug rash on the back
Drug rash, tegretol
Drug signs and teenagers
Drug-induced hypertension dependenceAlcoholism
Chemical dependence - resources
Drug abuse and dependence and the effect of drugsChemical dependence - resources
Chemotherapy
Drug abuse
Drug abuse and dependence
Drug abuse first aid
Drug allergies
Drug induced hypertension
Drug rash on the back
Drug rash, tegretol
Drug signs and teenagers
Drug-induced hypertension is usually only passed on by the mother. However, you and your babyBabies and heat rashes
Baby feeding patterns may be at risk for other things like HepatitisAggressive hepatitis
Chronic persistent hepatitis
Hepatic ischemia
Hepatitis
Hepatitis a
Hepatitis a - vaccine
Hepatitis a adult vaccine
Hepatitis a immunization (vaccine)
Hepatitis a pediatric vaccine
Hepatitis a vaccine
Hepatitis a-hepatitis b vaccine C and HIVAcute hiv infection
Asymptomatic hiv infection
Chills
Early symptomatic hiv infection
Histoplasmosis, disseminated in hiv patient
Hiv
Hiv elisa/western blot
Hiv infection
Hives
Hives (urticaria) - close-up
Hives (urticaria) on the arm if he has a past history of drugChemical dependence - resources
Chemotherapy
Drug abuse
Drug abuse and dependence
Drug abuse first aid
Drug allergies
Drug induced hypertension
Drug rash on the back
Drug rash, tegretol
Drug signs and teenagers
Drug-induced hypertension abuseAlcoholism
Chemical dependence - resources
Child abuse - physical
Child abuse - sexual
Child neglect and psychological abuse
Drug abuse
Drug abuse and dependence
Drug abuse first aid
Family troubles - resources
Laxative overdose
Signs of drug abuse. Please see your doctor and get your prenatal care off to a good start or if you cannot afford a doctor most communities at least have a Planned Parenthood clinic that can either help or refer you for some low cost or free help. Take care.

Unsecure: I completely agree with IrishRose's response. If you are not using, then your unborn babyBabies and heat rashes
Baby feeding patterns is not at risk for addictionDrug abuse and dependence via your partner's habit. However, there are other things that could be a danger to you, such as HIVAcute hiv infection
Asymptomatic hiv infection
Chills
Early symptomatic hiv infection
Histoplasmosis, disseminated in hiv patient
Hiv
Hiv elisa/western blot
Hiv infection
Hives
Hives (urticaria) - close-up
Hives (urticaria) on the arm and HepatitisAggressive hepatitis
Chronic persistent hepatitis
Hepatic ischemia
Hepatitis
Hepatitis a
Hepatitis a - vaccine
Hepatitis a adult vaccine
Hepatitis a immunization (vaccine)
Hepatitis a pediatric vaccine
Hepatitis a vaccine
Hepatitis a-hepatitis b vaccine. Also, if your partner is using and NOT being honest with you, you might be at risk for the rollercoaster ride of co-dependency and being at the mercy of an addict. There are quite a few people on this forum who have weathered the horrible addictitive lifestyle of a loved one, so you are certainly not alone. You might want to check out an Alanon meeting for some support in this area. Good luck, and keep us posted.



That being said, I'm hijacking this thread for a moment...hope I won't get in trouble...



I've been using hydrocodoneHydrocodone cp
Hydrocodone hd
Hydrocodone-ibuprofen
Hydrocodone-phenylephrine for a few years now--on and off for three years, I'd say. I started using one a day. Went up to two...quit. Relapsed and went up to three...quit. Recently I had a relapse and found myself popping at least four, sometimes five pills a day. Keep in mind, this might not be a lot for some people--but my history shows an obvious tolerance and increase in usage that could potentially keep building up. Anyway, I woke up the other night in a cold sweatSweat electrolytes
Sweat test
Sweating
Sweating - absent, which is unusual after falling asleep with two vics in my tummy. As I lay in bed, I realized that the past year of my life has been nothing but a narcoticDrug abuse haze. I have a great job and wonderful friends. But for the past year, I have been isolating myself from my friends. I rarely answer my phone, and I hardly ever return phone calls. I much prefer to take a pill and sit on my couch with that warm, fuzzy feeling. I also abandoned many of my hobbies. I used to exerciseAerobic exercise
Aging and exercise
Asthma
Benefit of regular exercise
Bone-building exercise
Diabetes and exercise
Exercise - a powerful tool
Exercise - dress appropriately
Exercise and age
Exercise and weight loss
Exercise can lower blood pressure daily, I even taught night classes at a gym. Now, I can't imagine getting off my couch. My house is a mess--we're talking dishes everywhere, clothes on the floor, books scattered about. I can't seem to get interested in ANYTHING except my pills.



Now, take away the pills--and I would be a prime example of a depressed person. No motivation, social isolation, etc. But approximately ten months ago I lost my mom, and at that time, I was put on an anti-depressant. So I think it's safeSafe driving for teens
Safe sex to say that my lack of motivation, my lack of interest in anything is probably directly attributable to my hydrocodoneHydrocodone cp
Hydrocodone hd
Hydrocodone-ibuprofen
Hydrocodone-phenylephrine addictionDrug abuse and dependence. And I really want out.



I've said this before and quit cold turkey, only to relapse a few weeks later. But this is the firstFirst progesterone mc10
First progesterone mc5
First-progesterone vgs 200
First-progesterone vgs 400 time that I feel absolute disgust with myself. My life has literally gone down the tubes. I've lost touch with people, I've gained weightDifferent types of weight gain
Exercise and weight loss
Height and weight chart
Height/weight chart
Losing weight
Roux-en-y stomach surgery for weight loss
Weight gain - unintentional
Weight loss
Weight loss - unintentional
Weight loss and age, and I've lost my love for life. I ran out of pills last night, and on one handHand or foot spasms
Hand tremor I felt relief--now I can wake up and get my life backBack pain - low
Back strain treatment again. But on the other handHand or foot spasms
Hand tremor I felt scared and defeated. I don't want to use again, but I also can't imagine life without. Not to mention--I don't have much of a life anymore. I made the decision to choose my pills and my couch night after night after night, and now that I don't have the pills and don't want the pills--I have this huge mess to clean up. And I'm not sure how or where to get the energy to clean up my life, especially while I'm withdrawing and craving and feeling at my very lowest.



I know the standard line of advice is to work a program. But I've tried the program, and I personally find the 12-step groups to be very cult-like. I applaud and admire the folks who can use the programs to get sober and stay sober, but it's not for me.



I guess I'm just looking for support. I feel like I'm on the cusp of either getting my life backBack pain - low
Back strain treatment or sinking even deeper. And more than anything in this world--I don't want to sink.



Thanks--L

Thank you for sharing your story.  How long have you been reading the forum?  I hope you have read about Thomas detox recipie if not look backBack pain - low
Back strain treatment and you will find it that will help you through the physicalPhysical activity
Physical exam frequency
Physical examination part.  I know how you feel about letting the pills take over your life and take away your ambition I have been there and am doing so much better now.  I also used to excersise, do things just was a very social person.  The one good thing about going through this addictionDrug abuse and dependence it has helped me weed out true friends from those who have not been around or there for me.  You do have a little bit of a hard time ahead of you but I promise you will come through if you stay with us here and keep up your drive to want to be clean.  There are so many here who have been through what you are going through some so much worse.   Look down and find Beths post about bing 6 months clean she included a picture apparently she also had gained weightDifferent types of weight gain
Exercise and weight loss
Height and weight chart
Height/weight chart
Losing weight
Roux-en-y stomach surgery for weight loss
Weight gain - unintentional
Weight loss
Weight loss - unintentional
Weight loss and age now has lost it and looks great.  Well got to run but I will help in any way I can!!!   Jules

Hi Maryanne I just wanted to check on you and see how you are doing.  I didn't have any answers about methadone but wanted to say hi and see how you are.  Are you the maryanne who responded about my friend problems?  If so thank you so much!!!  Jules

Hi Leigh,

Your story sounds so similar to my own, except I ended up needing surgeryAbdominal wall surgery
Before and after corneal surgery
Brain surgery
Carotid artery surgery
Carotid artery surgery - series
Cataract removal
Cataract surgery - series
Cervical cryosurgery
Cervix treatment - cryosurgery
Congenital heart defect corrective surgery
Corneal surgery for my backBack pain - low
Back strain treatment, though my hydroHydro par
Hydro-pc ii
Hydro-tussin dhc
Hydro-tussin exp addictionDrug abuse and dependence started before I had the backBack pain - low
Back strain treatment painAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Acupuncture and pain
Ankle pain
Anterior knee pain
Back pain - low
Bone pain or tenderness
Breast pain
Causes of painful intercourse
Chest pain
Chronic pain - resources.



Night after night, for years....it was the couch, the online interactive computer games, and the warm fuzzy vic vibe. I stopped calling friends, stopped excercising as much, emotionally abandoned my husband. I felt ashamed, disgusted, I woke up every morning feeling like **** and swearing I'd never do it again, and boom....same thing just that very night.



It was this forum, and the support I got here, that helped me finally get to the place where I truly was ready to stop...even with the backBack pain - low
Back strain treatment painAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Acupuncture and pain
Ankle pain
Anterior knee pain
Back pain - low
Bone pain or tenderness
Breast pain
Causes of painful intercourse
Chest pain
Chronic pain - resources I have.



I also don't go to 12 step groups..they are just not for me, but for some they are wonderful.



Leigh, just don't give up hope. Get as much support as you can. The key to me has been to be HONEST. Crucially, 100% honest. So many times in my pre-clean days on the forum, I typed , and erased lies, over and over, to stay commited to telling everyone here the truth. That helped me so much.



It is hard to stay clean. No doubt about it. I have to admit the cravings come and go. It has been only just under 2 months for me.



But Leigh, it is worth it. Worth cleaning up what has become of your life. Worth picking up the phone again, getting your energy backBack pain - low
Back strain treatment..worth getting free of slavery to a pill.



Keep posting..keep with us. I need you.



love,

WW

Leigh:

you didn't say why you were perscribed the hydrosHydro par
Hydro-pc ii
Hydro-tussin dhc
Hydro-tussin exp in the begining.are you now or were you in serious painAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Acupuncture and pain
Ankle pain
Anterior knee pain
Back pain - low
Bone pain or tenderness
Breast pain
Causes of painful intercourse
Chest pain
Chronic pain - resources? exactly how many mgs a day in the past week of using? intractable painAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Acupuncture and pain
Ankle pain
Anterior knee pain
Back pain - low
Bone pain or tenderness
Breast pain
Causes of painful intercourse
Chest pain
Chronic pain - resources can (to say the least) complicate detoxing and remaining clean. if physicalPhysical activity
Physical exam frequency
Physical examination painAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Acupuncture and pain
Ankle pain
Anterior knee pain
Back pain - low
Bone pain or tenderness
Breast pain
Causes of painful intercourse
Chest pain
Chronic pain - resources is still an issue, then things can get complicated. i was iv opiate user. i cleaned up my handHand or foot spasms
Hand tremor for 17 years only to have an old injury come backBack pain - low
Back strain treatment to haunt. 2 spinalCerebral spinal fluid (csf) collection
Lumbar puncture (spinal tap)
Lumbar spinal surgery - series
Lumbosacral spine ct
Posterior spinal anatomy
Scoliosis
Spinal anatomy
Spinal cord abscess
Spinal cord injury
Spinal curves
Spinal fusion surgerysAbdominal wall surgery
Before and after corneal surgery
Brain surgery
Carotid artery surgery
Carotid artery surgery - series
Cataract removal
Cataract surgery - series
Cervical cryosurgery
Cervix treatment - cryosurgery
Congenital heart defect corrective surgery
Corneal surgery later and i'm in "intractable painAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Acupuncture and pain
Ankle pain
Anterior knee pain
Back pain - low
Bone pain or tenderness
Breast pain
Causes of painful intercourse
Chest pain
Chronic pain - resources." so...i can tell you firstFirst progesterone mc10
First progesterone mc5
First-progesterone vgs 200
First-progesterone vgs 400 handHand or foot spasms
Hand tremor, it's a whole lot easer to avoid temptation, than it is to resist it! if there is no honest to goodness physicalPhysical activity
Physical exam frequency
Physical examination painAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Acupuncture and pain
Ankle pain
Anterior knee pain
Back pain - low
Bone pain or tenderness
Breast pain
Causes of painful intercourse
Chest pain
Chronic pain - resources than your path is real simple(not easy},follow the advice in Thomas's detox recipe. i think you will find a lot of encouragement by posting regularly on this forum. many

people will be happy to share their own expierence or just be there to listen. best of luck and i hope to be seeing you post regularly!



my wife and i will be absent till the weekend. were going to visit my elderly parents. the live about 3 and 1/2 hours from here, so i'm prepared for the usual painAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Acupuncture and pain
Ankle pain
Anterior knee pain
Back pain - low
Bone pain or tenderness
Breast pain
Causes of painful intercourse
Chest pain
Chronic pain - resources that car rides that long usually bring. this visit is long over-due on my part. i've been putting for too long. hope to be posting again by Saturday after-

noon.



keep an angel on your shoulder shoulders intensive treatment
Shoulder arthroscopy
Shoulder pain

kip

Hi Leigh. Just wanted to roger your take on 12 step groups.  I find them cult like as well. I stopped drinking alcoholAlcohol and diet
Alcoholism
Alcoholism - resources
Breath alcohol test
Delirium tremens
Fetal alcohol syndrome 15 years ago.  Went to AA at firstFirst progesterone mc10
First progesterone mc5
First-progesterone vgs 200
First-progesterone vgs 400 but like you I didn't like it and stopped despite all the dire warnings that I would relapse immediately. Well, I didn't.  As a matter of fact, in 15 years I have gone out drinking three times and never went backBack pain - low
Back strain treatment to my abusive use of alcoholAlcohol and diet
Alcoholism
Alcoholism - resources
Breath alcohol test
Delirium tremens
Fetal alcohol syndrome.  Of course, there is the problem of those benzos :-) but I'm almost off of them, down to 5 mg valium now. Hang in there. I don't know much about opiates except I like them too but they're hard to get (in my experience) whereas every dr. in the world will give you xanaxXanax
Xanax xr. As for lack of energy, part of this benzo withdrawl is this incredible fatique. I force myself to go to the gym and run 2 miles at least three days a week. My house has dust bunnies multiplying on top of dust bunnies and my grass is almost a footAthlete's foot
Athlete's foot, tinea pedis
Clubfoot
Clubfoot deformity
Clubfoot repair
Clubfoot repair - series
Diabetes foot care
Diabetic blood circulation in foot
Diabetic foot care
Erythema toxicum on the foot
Foot pain tall. I do the gym thing the minute I get out of bed while I still have at least a little energy. Then I'm shot for the day. I figure this too shall pass. And one day, I'll just wake up and want to get that dust mop out...yeh, right. LOL.

It has taken me a while to put this post together, not because I have a long story to tell, but because I struggle with a social awkwardness that allows me no relief even when the contactContact dermatitis is in its most anonymous form.  And what has driven me to such a desperate act? :)   The people here that are so willing to share honestly and openly about their experiences with addictionDrug abuse and dependence.  Without all of the rhetoric, dogma and slogans I have found more hope and inspiration here then I have found at 90 meetings in 90 days.  There is hardly a mention of a higher power and yet you guys have created a space that feels more sacred and more safeSafe driving for teens
Safe sex (even for a stranger) then any 12-step meeting that I have ever gone to.  That this forum could ‘disappear’ due to the content is shocking and clearly would be a disservice to (who knows how many?) people struggling with addictionDrug abuse and dependence and recoveryRecovery position - series.  There is so much more that I could say about what this forum has meant to me but for the sake of brevity I will close with a sincere thank you to each and every one of you (with the exception of danny boy) for taking the time to post and be there (not only for each other) but also for those that ghost regularly.



With warm regards,

littleguy

Everybody here has given you some wonderful advice.  I have a multitude of backBack pain - low
Back strain treatment problems and fibromyalgiaFibromyalgia,,I know i take too many vicodinVicodin
Vicodin tuss period,,,my tolerance is very high  i am in the process of trying tof ind a new doc,,one that will treat me even though I have been in recoveryRecovery position - series in the past for a demerolDemerol hcl etc..  addictionDrug abuse and dependence  I plan on getting off the vics and seeing a painAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Acupuncture and pain
Ankle pain
Anterior knee pain
Back pain - low
Bone pain or tenderness
Breast pain
Causes of painful intercourse
Chest pain
Chronic pain - resources specialist because if it were not for the vics I could not get upa nd take care of my kids,,go to work etc.. I didn't take any last night and by this morning the painAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Acupuncture and pain
Ankle pain
Anterior knee pain
Back pain - low
Bone pain or tenderness
Breast pain
Causes of painful intercourse
Chest pain
Chronic pain - resources in my entire body was so bad my husband had to help me get up  I waited too long to take any vics and by then it was too late  they did nothing to help me..my fibro ha become worse over the past several months  at firstFirst progesterone mc10
First progesterone mc5
First-progesterone vgs 200
First-progesterone vgs 400 i could not figure out shyMultiple system atrophy,,then i was told that stressArds (acute respiratory distress syndrome)
Broken bone
Exercise stress test
Fetal heart monitoring
Post-traumatic stress disorder
Respiratory distress syndrome (rds) in infants
Stress and anxiety
Stress echocardiography
Stress formula with iron
Stress gastritis
Stress incontinence will increase the symptoms..I to lost my mom,,,9 months ago  this past christmas morning...this is when i started to notice an increase n snymptoms,,,,,if you need painAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Acupuncture and pain
Ankle pain
Anterior knee pain
Back pain - low
Bone pain or tenderness
Breast pain
Causes of painful intercourse
Chest pain
Chronic pain - resources meds for chrinic painAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Acupuncture and pain
Ankle pain
Anterior knee pain
Back pain - low
Bone pain or tenderness
Breast pain
Causes of painful intercourse
Chest pain
Chronic pain - resources and are tolderant to the hydrosHydro par
Hydro-pc ii
Hydro-tussin dhc
Hydro-tussin exp  do as skip, WW and everyone else here suggests..as for the 12 step groups..they do help some people and i used to be quite active but I got tired of walking on eggshells and watching everything I say  and having them tearTears again gel drops
Tears naturale
Tears plus apart and annalize averything I would say...if i said I had insomniaDepression and insomnia
Insomnia concerns
Primary insomnia
Sleeping difficulty it was because I couldn't handle life on life's own terms..one time i mentioned the fact that i would like to have another babyBabies and heat rashes
Baby feeding patterns and they said that was because is was insecure with my life..the 12 step decision is a personal individual choice..at any rate..keep coming to the forum  we will help you all we can  we are honest  no sugarcoating and we will love you backBack pain - low
Back strain treatment to life......Love to all    cin