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To be sure, Call your phamacist. Do not take my word for it.
i cannot imagine feeling that again....the bup makes me feel good...normal. now i have to go back to the same old crappy feeling.
i'm a real bummer right now. normally i post when i'm feeling good, because i don't want to bring everyone down. i want to be positive and help people - can't do that today i guess...is there anybody out there?
i wish you'd all come back...i need your words of wisdom even more now...
i have been readiing all the post for four weeks now.
what is your plan, toget more bup. maybe try to uae something like darvocet or ultracet to help you ween down.
Ive heard everyone say that w/d from bup is not nearly as bad.
what ever you do ,post about it.
i have three weeks cold turkry today. the receipe saved my butt.
the with drawl symptoms i suffered the past few years,were almost non existent . and beleive me i am a wimp in that area.
whats the plan and keep posting/ michael
tlk
your not alone! i know a couple of others beat me to the point on
that one. what's up, are you afraid we won't like you straight,
without the dope or the bup? i don't want to climb on your case
but please don't compare how you feel on the inside, with the way
everyone else looks on the outside. you will come up a loser ev-
ery time you do. gwh brought up the main point here...something
good will happen to you today! what he left out is how will you
ever notice it if you remain in the **** eating mood you seem to
be stuck in today? anything is possiable, we all have only to
learn how to "see!"
i'm going to love and care about you, and there just isn't one
damm thing you can do about!
so get an angel on your shoulder
kip
drugs i smoked cigerates, now that im clean 3 weeks no smoking.
when i was a kid i played a lot of sports and only smoked cigerets at night mostly because partying was at night.
I may never understand it. It's aprial 25 been taking the vit,s
everyday, for 3 weeks ,beencold turkey the whole time.
my knee,s ache, my lower back achs in the wee hours of the morning. but this disapearence of the depression that used to just stop me dead in my tracks,that is great.
Also the last few months i was useing i had this fear ,real bad fear.like inpendind doom. or death. that has lifted also.
i am so nervous - i have two amps left, and i keep wondering should i just take them now and feel good for awhile or split them up and feel semi-shitty for a couple days.
tlk - i am prescribed 3 amps per day. i have a VERY high tolerance to meds, and it just isn't enough. i have gone thru bup withdrawal before, and i thought it was pretty bad. you're right that the depression is the worst part of it. i talked with dr. bodkin who is the head of pharmacology research at mcclean hosp - he told me he maintains some people on 6 amps per day...for depression! too bad he isn't taking new patients and is trying to switch over to research only.
anyway, thanks guys...i always appreciate hearing from you all.
Others have already said a lot of what I'd want to say to you as well, but please know that we need and want you to post no matter how you are feeling. Don't worry about bringing people down. It isn't your job to bring us all up! We all take care of ourselves while supporting and caring for each other. There is always a balance. I've noticed in the year I've been posting that there are always times when some of us are feeling low and some are feeling really great, and we carry each other when we are down. It just always seems to work out that way. So please understand we *need* you to post when you are feeling down, just as much as you need to post. Don't censure yourself ...how else can you really get the support you need?
It was learning to let people know when I was at my weakest most vulnerable point, and letting folks support me, that brought me to where I am today. I'm certainly not perfect...I don't 'have it all together' but I'm pretty happy most of the time and free of opiate dependancy. It took a lot to get there, and part of getting there took learning to show my weak side.
love,
WW
it's really hard for me to write when i feel so incredibly negative...it does make me feel better tho when i receive your kind responses.
The thing about bup is that it's a agonist/antagonist (you probably already know this, so sorry) and so at higher doses it is actually counter-effective, according to the literature. I might be wrong about this, just what I've been told and read. I needed two amps a day to start, then three, then four maxed me out. But I found if I was running low and took even one per day, it was enough to fight the depression. Bup is actually many, many times stronger than morphine as a painkiller, which is why it's such a low dose when injected. I think that the many months I spent on it ruined me for the regular hydro, which when I switched back put me on 150-200 mgs/day and still didn't do much for the pain. After that, morphine shots didn't even help.
Everyone reacts different, of course, but I did find that if I took at least some bup a day, even just one dose, it kept the w/d away completely, and that was after almost a year. I tend to start w/ds really fast, too, within hours often. I hope this helps some. Let me know if you want to talk, and good luck. Waiting around for meds sucks more than almost anything, and begging your pharmacy is just as bad.
tlk
oh well, guess i just have to sit here and wait for an answer...i'm kind of dreading hearing what he has to say, but then again i'm in a very negative mood.