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Good luck,
Jess
P.S. WHere are you, Skip?
Not long ago, I was mixing alcohol with Vicodin, morphine, Xanax and Welbutrin. Talk about a vicious cycle! The act of taking any one of the above alone would soon lead to taking them all with little regard for my doctor's orders or my own safety.
I'm happy for you that you are still at a good "jumping off" point!
J.B.
here i am. can't be much help here....gave up on drinking back in
1978. i was taking webutrin untill about 4 weeks ago. the webutrin
did get me off nicotine. it also gave me a jumped up creepy feel-
ing. about a mounth ago i quit taking it with no noticeable affect.
i never felt like welbutrinn did much for me, but help me quit
smoking (which was a hell of a lot!)
JB:
always good to ear from you. you and your famikly are in my pray-
ers. how are you doing. just gor a e-mail from Wizard and he sends
his best to you and yours.
Jess:
alright so when coffee? how's your aunt's attitude? your aunt is
fortunate to have insurence to go to Hazeldine (i hope)!
'ya all keep an angel on your shoulder
kip
Here's my self-pity problem: My youngest girl, who I am incredibly proud of naturally, is graduating from kindergarten tomorrow. As some of you know, I'm a writer and also a voracious reader (3-5 books/week). Her teacher called me yesterday to say my baby is below grade level in reading. This is my fault, I'm sure, as I have totally not been here for the past 2 years. I never left physically but my mind was so wasted all the time I just wasn't there for her, didn't help her (she's profoundly shy) and I know it's my fault. She's smart as can be but now at the start of her school career she's behind because her mom was so doped up she was basically useless as a parent since that baby was three years old.
I'm trying to make up for things now, but can I ever really? I missed so much. I don't even remember whole days, weeks...my kids will talk about some event and I don't even remember it happening, it's just like "swoosh" right over my head. What a flake. I know I have to forgive myself and try to be the best I can for these three babies now, but damn sometimes I hate myself. I know there are many, many things worse in the world than this little problem, but I still feel like a failure, although a failure with a whole of hope for the future! Thanks for listening, just needed to vent and confess yet again one of my many shortcomings.
I have been a little weak , going back to work full time and all
. the hardest part is just getting up and going.
Anyway 7 weeks this week, off the pills.
A lot of really good things are happening, it always seemed like i was caught in an endless cycle of murphy's law when i was useing, everything that can go wrong does.
but when i stay clean and do what's right ,it's just thr oppisite
every thing is is coming up roses.
well i have to go out and re-up on the vitamines.
hey how about that guy getting clean in a cabin out in the middle of no-where. my heart goes out to him.
well if he is readindg this , he can post to me and i will buy him the receipe and ship it fed x over nite to him if he is intrested. i would just need a place to send it.
peaceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee to all, and thank you to all
hang in there , sounds like you been here before,
a real pro. i have a very close child hood freind
who i got started on drugs back in 77 and he has been hooked on
the big H /the monster/horse for 20 years, i am trying to find him , to get him some help.
when i read your post it was like i was reading him.
peace. keep posting, im thinking of ya everyday,
peace/ michael from philly
A word of caution: the drug Zyban, used for smoking cessation, is the same drug as Wellbutrin.
Hippy, that was a terrifly sweet offer you made to Kee in the cabin. God, I hope he's okay. That sucks. You and I are in the same place, at 7 1/2 weeks. It sure feels great, doesn't it? I am sooo happy and feel a million times better than I did even two weeks ago. It is like the sweetest gift from above, and I hope I never blow it. My husband said last night that his biggest fear is that I will go back to using, whereas he used to worry about money, etc. I replied that yes, it's possible, but it's also possible I'll get hit by a truck and at least I can decide on one and not the other. It's kind of a bummer but I guess I deserve it. Won't dwell, in any case, because I just feel too damn good! It's crazy to feel like this and still have cravings, but I guess that's the nature of the beast. Just have to fight it every day and accept it as part of life, which I'm doing right now.
Hope all are having a good day...
lasting for about a year, at 24 i had been tring to get clean for 8 years in aa -na- rehab -relegion. during those 8 years
i could never get it , i used to get these cravings from the top of my head to the bottom of my feet, and the cravins would say to me, you can come now or you can come later on tonight but we are definitly getting high. rembering back i always fell prey to those intense cravings, mostly because i never told any one, i never called anyone, i always tried to do it my self.
it was not till i was 24 and i was about 9 months clean and i woke up around midnite and i had one of those cravings , and i had moved away from the city and my old cop man, and i called some freind of mine in aa and he told me he would be right over
and we talked over coffee, he said by calling him , it was a break through for me , well he was right. after that i always lived with/ worked with people who were clean.
i guess it's a wall we all have to get over at some point in early recovery.
for me , i had to stay away from people/ places and things that were connected with using. peace!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have to share this. I have endo and while I was using I spent every evening in bed. All weekend too. I worked my butt off and was on call 24 hours, but if I was home, I'd do the minimum to get the kids taken care of and then lay down, numb. And yell a lot. My kids thought it was the endo, that I was sick from that. I was, but really it was the drugs and depression and numbness. My oldest always said she wanted to be a doctor to cure my disease one day.
Now that I'm clean and human again, she commented the other night, "I actually forgot you have that disease Mommy, you're so much better!" I see no reason at this point to share what the real problem was, but that felt good. They can see a difference and that's what's important, huh? Just wanted to share that; it's incredible to look back and realize how bad it really was. It's an insidious disease that robs us of life, slowly but damnably surely. So I guess it only makes sense that it takes time to get better. Still, I never thought I'd feel this much better after less than 2 months. Don't kid myself that it's over, but it's still better! And you are an inspiration, seeing that you've made it this far so successfully. That story about giving your kids a "happy" mommy and relapsing hit me, as I used that excuse many times myself. Thanks for sharing and being a help to those still struggling in the first stages.
still pretty selfish at times. I really don't beat myself up about it to much though. It all comes in time. Things have always had a way of working themselves out. I believe that things happen for a reason, just as much for me as with for kids.They have a mother for an addict for some reason too. Who knows what they will do with that information and the things they have and will learn from me. If you look back on all the bad things that have happened to you, you probably can see some good that came out of it. At least thats how it is for me. I would like to hear why your leaving your town. I don't believe there is much that would shock me anymore. Remember I am an addict, I've done my share of embarrasing things too, and hey I live in South Florida, you wouldn't believe what goes on down here!