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I also tapered off percs, with the help of a co-worker...just felt i was more accountable; plus it felt real good when i returned some of my allotted meds.
I've just entered my third month off...and feeling very good.
Stay the course Laura, I'm/we're pulling for you!!!!!!!!!!!
It does make me wonder how much this shot would have caused if I had to pay for it out of pocket. This is a Doc I know well. He works in the same HMO that I work for, and we refer clients back and forth. He still seemed annoyed that I called, but hell, it is my health I was worried about. It's the same Doc who offered me oxy when I told him I was an addict and asked for bup instead.
He's not a bad guy, he just couldn't accept that a person as 'straight" looking as me could possibly be an addict, even though I did come totally clean with him last summer.
Wierd.
WW
Things are going really well for me, my life is back together, sailing smoothly and happily. No hydro, no tears, no pain....lots of smiles.
I won't be actively posting, but I will be reading the board when I can and will try to help as I can...so I'll be out here and hopefully can help if someone needs it.
I know we are not supposed to post e-mail addresses, so I will not post mine, but some of you have it and if you need an ear, please use it.
Copuple of quick notes:
WW, thank you...my love to you too.
Pixi, never posted you because you seemed to be someone who (like me) got most of their strength from answering others questions...I got a lot from your posts too. Thanks, hope you are OK.
DEVA, (are you also a Diva?) thank you for the well wishes...amnio was fine...I will have 3 girls now! Add mom and I have a polo team. Hope things go well for you, LOL.
Alissa, don't know if you are still out there, but if you are...please remember there are people who love you...for who you are...not for who you think you should be. Please take care Spunkmeister...miss you.
DB, (dirt...Debbie...DB hmmm.) Hope you are doing well. You have given back a lot to help others here...you should be proud of that. I hope all works out for you, you deserve it to. Don't be so hard on yourself if you can avoid it.
Hippy, bmac, sean, jess, et al....thank guys...make it OK?
Chezz...well you know.
Jeff...hang in there.
Goldenbear, hope I did not offend you. I was not trying to defend anyone really...just to suggest that this should be a place where we all try to understand and not to judge. Even not to judge those that judge us. I wish you the best, 21+ days is a long way down a very hard road, my congratulations to you on doing so well and your courage. Again, no offense meant, wish you the best, as I do all here.
pon
Thomas
So your doc was annoyed? When I went through my back treatment and surgery, I was struck by how blase all the docs were.
You should have a perspective on this: is it just too stressful and draining to 'care' all day when you're dealing with people's pain and fear? I can see where it would be. I'm glad you bugged him, though. Keep him on speed dial just in case. You could give him anger management therapy once your back is fine.
Thomas
PEACE!!
Good Luck and God Bless
Jane says (I'm gonna kick tomorrow)
You KNOW I wouldn't have given you such a hard time if you hadn't mentioned that fact that you are a free-lance writer!
I also like your choice of "Mariposa" as your new Username on the board.
No hard feelings,
~~~~Jess~~~~
NM156
Finishing up day 23 here. I am amazed at how much sharper and clearer the world is. Just amazed.
To be honest, if I could still get that same wonderful feeling I got when I first "found" hydro (or even when I used it on a regular, but still occasional basis) I don't know that I could stay away. But the truth is that I was at the point where more and more and more were doing less and less and less. Even "day one" of a new batch left me feeling dissapointed with the not-quite-high, but up half the night and unable to eat much. From then on it was just a matter of having enough so I wouldn't crash . . . but of course I always did crash eventually; aside from the fog of the hydro, the body can only take so long with too little sleep, too little food.
Skip -- I did make it to the gym yesterday. It was a very nice boost, but I'm sore as a pig today.
WW -- hope your leg is returning to normal.
CATUF
slow release capsule twice a day.I don't feel addicted to it like I did when I was taking them for the 'fun' of it,you know.
I did swap to another narcotic but it still feels about the same.
I know if I take it long enough I will have a physical dependance
but as long as I take them as prescribed I will always have a doctor to help me taper then detox.I finally realized the medical
community will help us and will prescribe these evil little pills
we all are addicted to as long as we go by their rules.
I do have pain that only these opiates can relieve in part but
surgery can't fix what ails me.I really believe now that I can let someone else control my narcotic use because for over 20 years I have tried and failed miserably.I hope you can fight the addiction part,the mental part really sux!
bmac
a day then stop ,your imunuty to vike's and perc's
will be very high, meaning it will feel like you took nothing.
as far as the term readdicted, i don't think it applies here.
he gw are you living in town up in your neck of the wood.s
peace!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anywho...an addict with a habit such as you had dear friend, shouldn't dabble with the devil. You should stay as far away from opiates as possible. I think you already know that. You will become addicted again, even if you take a small amount every day. Anyone on pain meds, for any length of time, will become physically addicted. An addict cannot "socially" indulge. It will lead you nowhere.
As I've told you many, many times. The physical part of quitting drugs is the easiest part. Staying off is much harder, and you need support to succeed. As much as you hate meetings, why don't you try to go to at least one (different) meeting each day for one week. In that time, you might just find one in which you feel comfortable. After talking with a fellow member on the phone yesterday, I think I will do the same. It has worked for many, many others - I feel that I just have to find the right one.
What do you have to lose? You have the time to devote to going to the gym to have a healthy body right? You probably can find an hour in each day to help you get cleaned up...good luck.
a.k.a. groovygirl
As far as meetings........ I know they work for other people, and I have gone to 1 or 2, but ITS NOT MY THING, I don't like them, i find them to be no help what so ever. I can understand that others might find them beneficial, but it doesn't work for me.
Do you go to meetings??
big letter or small,
good morning to you both.
yea like groovy said getting clean
is the easy part.
it's growing up that is hard
peace!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!