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DO YOU THINK THIS IS TRUE?
by beenthere2, Dec 09, 2002 12:00AM
I have recently read a great book titled "Junkie: Confessions of an Unredeemed Drug Addict" by William Lee (aka William Burroughs). The book was written in 1953, however sadly, the subject matter is timeless.
The main character is wealthy and develops a tremendous heroin habit. But his take on it is what really struck me. He states: "Junk (drugs) wins by default. You become a narcotics addict because you don't have strong motivations in any other direction." For Bill (the main character, the great irony is that he gains the motivation, the need for money, only after he becomes a junkie.
So do you think this has merit? Have you examined the motivations in your life? Is there a link between boredom, ennui and addiction? Personally, I can see the correlation.
The main character is wealthy and develops a tremendous heroin habit. But his take on it is what really struck me. He states: "Junk (drugs) wins by default. You become a narcotics addict because you don't have strong motivations in any other direction." For Bill (the main character, the great irony is that he gains the motivation, the need for money, only after he becomes a junkie.
So do you think this has merit? Have you examined the motivations in your life? Is there a link between boredom, ennui and addiction? Personally, I can see the correlation.
Most people likely had some sort of pain, went to their general doc, who then, rather than spending the 30 minutes we all know they don't have diagnosing the problem, they wrote out a script and WHAM! it worked - the pain was gone. for a while....
Then the "machine" took over. For me the machine went something like this "Hey this stuff works on more than just physical pain! Boredom, Fatigue, headaches, anxiety - it's a miracle drug. More must work better than less!"
At that point, if you have the right gene combo, you have just checked into the Hotel California, and as you know, you can check out any time you like, but.....you can never leave!
If there is truth to this article/story, then perhaps part of getting out is figuring out what got you in and then fixing that either first or along the way to the exit.
Rex
Two things in my life are absolutely true.
1) God has ALWAYS answered my reasonable prayers
2) He has NEVER done it in the timeframe I originally asked for
How are you?
Rex
It is extremely important for you to look at your dosage today and compare it with a week ago. If you stuck with your first week schedule, you are winning. Follow the same plan, and you will be to zero in no time!
FOr those who are ahead, adjust your schedule accordingly, and see if you can complete your arrival at zero sooner than expected.
For those who may not have stuck to it, start over this week. There is still plenty of time.
To all - let's use the new year as the resolution to end all resolutions.
Jan 1st - we arrive at zero together - no matter what! Do anything it takes to make that happen. Do not throw things,inlcuding family members or pets, or break large pieces of furniture, but maintain a positive perspective.
There are so many veterans on this board who have used this method and have succeeded. This is why I thought the challenge concept would work, it has a proven track record...
Finally, if you accepted the challenge, please report your status in this thread..........
Rex
i stole cars on the side, and was a a copman.( ps. a nice way of saying drugdealer the thought sickens me.
in the next 5 years of my life i lived 20 years worth of life
on the very edge.
at twenty four i had 3 choices go to jail for ever,
blow your brains out or get clean and get as far away from the
sreets as you can.
sounds like a good book.
there is one about an addict getting clean. its called
saint mary blue by barry longyear
Thanks for all of your help during my first week or two! (I am on day 15, hating my body and wishing I could excise my entire back from the rest of my body) - othwerwise, life is but a dream........;-0
I owe you.......
Rex
peace!!!!!!!!!
Keep up the fight. You are far past the worst physical part. Take one day at a time and realize that each day it does get better. I have found that finding activities to keep me busy has been great for me both physically and mentally. I try to wear myself out during the days so that I can rest at night. Also, when I am busy I can't dwell on the pills.
I recently heard something from a friend. Pain pills by their nature take away pain. Without pain one cannot experience joy. I could experience euphoria when high on the pills but not true joy. As I have got off the pills my pain in my back (and my whole body) has returned. Now that I feel pain again, I have begun to reexperience joy. That is what is so cool about being clean--I now actually feel joy.
Hippee, man, when I hear "peace" from someone named hippee, it takes me back to the 70s in Miami, where I can still smell the aroma from the hippees at the park across the street (real, live, true, authentic, hippees), I can hear the Doobie Brothers singin "Oh black water, keep on rollin, mississippee moon won't ya keep on shining on me......." The Dolphins were 17-0, summer has just started, the sun is shining, south beach is waiting, girls are pretty and tanned, and life is but a dream....
Today, my back hurts, I supporting 5 people in Southern California, my job is hell, and I got a two hour round trip commute"
thanks for cheering me up.
It could be worse - I could think that rap music is actual music by real musicians, and enjoy listening to it.
A famous line direct from the 70's (ya gotta picture a hippee standing there with the long hair and long mustache with a harley in the background and a doobie in his hand)
"Do unto others - then split!"
peace back at ya...
Rex
i have been working a lot, we just got a 10 in snowfall
more work.
i love miami, in jan or feb or march.
it's 18 degrees here.
this is philly south street where all the hippies meet.
count your blessings , and focous on the positive.
remember the things normal people do for pain like
a hot bath , ice, tylonol extra strength. and my fav
strecthing a little yoga. lay on your back lift one leg up
hold 8 seconds , lift next leg same thing.
lay on your back knees up , knees to the right side down
stretch arms left.
then the other way.
those two took back pain i had for 2 years away.
pax'''''''''
BUT I am trying to stay positive, or at least mellow. if a pill helps ease my pain and help my mindset at the same time, then why is it so bad????
everything take time, stay on the positive tract
it will get better, your doing your best.
thats our job , to do our best god does the rest.
sometimes we try tyo do the rest, and thats not our job.
sometimes our best is not so great, we just have to keep moving in the right direction. small steps in the right direction
will get where we need to get too.
so take it light.
one of our biggest problems is we focous to much on ourselves,
we judge ourselves to harshly , we need to get our foucous off ourselves and on
our higher power,
peace!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
As hippee says, just keep moving forward Ok, and look at your lower dose compared with last week.
Post if you need support...I'll be praying for you...
Rex
(If you are interested, I will be happy to tell you more about something that will help you, but it really involves looking past this life, and to the life God has planned.Not everyone here believes in that, but I do and always have, so if your interested, just ask. Hint: This life is just a drop in the bucket of eternity, and God has everyone's life planned out if we just ask....)
Jennifer