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Kurt

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Yes. I do. They were not positive experiences, and I too had good insurance. Perhaps I wasn't "ready." In fact I know I wasnt.



I felt they ran junkies thru rehab like cattle w/ a prod. It was dehumanhizing: IE : no Pert shampoo (as in--> I might drink it)  (instead I was "sold" their shampoos) turned out to be verrrry expensive.



Additionally, all perfumes were "confiscated," and I had to "ask" for a spray of mine. Even then I was "watched" and they seemed (they being the staff) "put-out" by the request of time away from their desk chores. I am a "girly" type of woman, so this was a "chore" they hated from me.



Let's see what else, ah yes.. No Music (headphones, etc) and No novels.. It was the Big Book, or nothing.



There were mandatory "classes." These, imo, were wastes, not w/ a humanHcg in urine
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It simply did not seem individualized or personal to me. Like the counselors. All seemed scripted.



Granted, I went there w/ the wrong attitude and for the wrong reasons (I was not and am  not an alchy) Not that being an alcoholic is better, or worse, than a pill headHead and face reconstruction
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I am simply relating a personal experience w/ a 14 day rehab.



There were other dehumanizing experiences, ones I have heard that exist, commonly, in other well-known rehabs. Ones I would rather not rehash. Like standing in line for daily meds, often meds that weren't needed, imo.. but they were part of the "program" (a part in Frey's book that was sooo true)



I am not a fan of rehab or FORCED reading (IE : Big Book). I don't mind, in fact love, reading anything. I have recently admitted to myself, and hubby, that the Bible was "above my headHead and face reconstruction
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I am NOT, NOT, (at this time) religious. It was my desire, like reading, say, "Tess D'urbervilles"(sp), "Jane Eyre". "Moby ****", "Pilgrim's Progress", etc that in order to be a somewhat literate, one should understand the Bible. I didn't. Not really. I mean I knew the "stories," but the gaps were outrageous. So was the history and geography.



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This is, one side, mine. I am sure you will get many opposite viewpoints, but had I to do again, I would Not choose an A/A based recoveryRecovery position - series program, but instead a rational recoveryRecovery position - series based one. Tho' A/A touts 'Take what you want and leave the rest behind".. I do not find that is the case after decades + of evaluating and studying them



Again. I am sorry I if I have bored you w/ this roundabout theory of mine.



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Good luck w/ your decision on rehab. Pllllease talk to "graduates" before you enter a program.



rwc~

As the person before me said, you do have to be ready, extremely focused and fixed on your target BEFORE going to inpatient rehab.

Everyone is different.  For me, I got a lot out of the 5 weeks I was in.  What inpatient offers you is a method of interacting with people that you know are in the same fix as you are.  The environment is really laid backBack pain - low
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It did offer me a moment of clarity that helped me get and stay focused.

For your research, I offer the following: http://www.lahacienda.com .  It is located in Texas.  There's also another one in Mexico, but I don't know a lot about that one.

You have several rehabs to choose from, mainly because there are millions just like you and I out there.

I do have to warn you about one thing that bothered me about rehab.  When I went in, I thought "Gee... these guys must know what they are doing.  I better listen to everything they say and take it as truth."   The fact is... take what you want and YOU can use.  Some of the stuff I heard was extremely helpful while other things, I just brushed aside.  (i.e.  instead of the 12 steps, I've authored the "My 6 steps".)

While I do have a higher power in my life and it works for me, that isn't to say that you do or need to have a higher power to get clean. It is YOUR CHOICE.

There are other sites that I've come across that offer alternatives to 12 step programs.  I've read as much info as I could and have found that a balancedBalanced diet, commonCommon cold sense approach works well.  For example, if you go to a 12 step treatment center and argue with em that you are not destined to a life of being an addict, they will bow up and start in on you.  It is my opinion that I am NOT destined to remain an addict for the rest of my life.  I make choices, I act on those decisions and I get a result.  If I change my choices and make different decisions, it stands to reason that I would expect a different result.

Personally speaking (and I'll probably catch hell on this) if you tell someone they're an addict and will always be an addict, what hope do they have of changing a damn thing?  Why bother?

Anyway... my belabored point is this:  Think about why you want to go to rehab, decide which methodology works within YOUR framework, then act.  One thing for sure... you are NOT cursed nor are you weaker than someone else that's kicked a habit.  When you're ready and with the right approach, you'll be successful.  You just gotta decide and want your life backBack pain - low
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Good luck in your search to reclaim your life.

Peace,

Methman

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Rehab helped me, I once quit on my own without any medicationAllergic reactions to medication
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Thanks for all your help. I am looking for a place that is more detox than spiritual or 12 step.  Most places seemed to be 12 step oriented.  I am wondering if I should just see an addictionlogist and a psychiatrist.  I have a lot of faith but I am trying to collect myself more from the physicalPhysical activity
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Please do not take this the wrong way. I made hundreds of excuses before I went into rehab for 8 days backBack pain - low
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Do not put a time limit on rehab. It just depends on how you are doing (health and mentalMental retardation
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Good luck and Gods Speed.



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After rehab they will put you in a 4-8 week IOP or outpatient program. This is where the real work begins. Most addicts stay too busy and have ahard time with free time. I did. But if you ask a higher power, in my case God, he will help you. The firstFirst progesterone mc10
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I even did the second guess thing on the rehab. If you think you need, then I think you answered your own question.



Every passing moment is an opportunity to change our direction.



God's Speed.



Sturgil Flockin

My two cents on rehab.........I was put into a hospital room and left alone for two and a half days with clonidine and phenobarb,

I watched TV(TEE vee for Peaz) and prayed and sweated. After the doctor didn't come to see me I called the switchboard and ask for the floor charge nurse. She came in and explain that the doctors there really couldn't except my insurance for withdrawalsDelirium tremens. Now these are the same assholes that took my insurance money for 3 majorMajor tears
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Ditto Sturgil, the 12step support program is what has kept me clean for 9 months now, without it I know I would be using again, there are however other alternatives, but ALL require some type of support structure.

Concerning quitting/rehab, you need to ask yourself the following question: Do I REALLY want to quit?, don't ask yourself this question 1 hour after you have popped LortabLortab
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I would be happy to help you in any way beat this.

Yes it will be hard

Yes you will feel like **** for at least a week (maybe more)

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Yes you can do it

And once you get out of primaryPrimary amyloidosis
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i have been in treatment 13 times that i can remember. i got something out of treatment everytime i went in i suppose... i have had good experiences and god awful experiences (rapeAbortion - elective or therapeutic
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