The doc here is dead on, you need to get help NOW, not wait around. The longer you put this off the worse the problem will get.

As for your partner I would suggest a program called alanon, its run by A.A. and is geared to helping the familiesBirth control and family planning
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If that is not your speed, then suggestions here can help, there are alot of mentalMental retardation
Mental status tests health clinics that deal with addictionDrug abuse and dependence and can help you and your partner.

I think you need to take the firstFirst progesterone mc10
First progesterone mc5
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First-progesterone vgs 400 step today, you need help now not soon. Talk to your doctor for suggestions, ask someone who beat it what they did.

Yes it will be a rough couple of weeks but you will survive it.

If you need any help just post here and all of us former pillheads will be glad to help (clean 10 months now)

My feedback,

When you say "as I work toward the goal of being drugChemical dependence - resources
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Drug-induced hypertension free" it sounds as if you do not truly fully 100% want to quit yet. That is the firstFirst progesterone mc10
First progesterone mc5
First-progesterone vgs 200
First-progesterone vgs 400 step, you have to completely without a doubt want to. Because it is difficult even after you make that decision, if you have not made that decision, the addiciton will not have much trouble convincing you to use again.

Making the decision and then sticking to it, staying the course so to speak, will be your success. It is commonCommon cold for us addicts to have "going to quit" in the near future, it helps us justify our being on. I can relate to this, please don't get caught up in that as it can go on for many years. It is best to stop now, sooner than later because it only gets more difficult (your body becomes more and more dependent on it) with time.



As for your b/f, he is going to learn about being in a relationship where there is an addictionDrug abuse and dependence. Ask for his full support, and if he gives it to you (and he loves you and you love him) don't let him or yourself down, get free of the drugsChemical dependence - resources
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Drug-induced hypertension. DrugsChemical dependence - resources
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The only way you can get him to understand is to come totaly clean with him! You have to share everything with your partner, no matter how much it's going to hurt.  It is not fairFair skin cancer risks to him when he is not included in that part of your life, he would rather be clued in than kept in the dark. If he truely loves you he will try his best to be patientKidney diet - dialysis patients with you.  However you can't expect him to walk on eggshells every time you get upset, you to have to understand this is as painfulPainful menstrual periods to him as it is for you and maybe a little more because he is dealing with the unknown.  If you can't talk to him faceFace pain to faceFace pain, write it down on paper you'll be surprised how the truth just flows out.  Once again please remember your partner is just as confused as you are, he does'nt know what to do for you if you won't tell  him.  Remember if your partner gets upset it's normal, don't use it as an excuse to get high he has the right be on edge too, this is a big shockArds (acute respiratory distress syndrome)
Cardiogenic shock
Electroconvulsive therapy
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Hypoglycemia
Hypovolemic shock
Lithotripsy
Shock
Toxic shock syndrome to him, he has the right to know the truth!  Remember this is your addictionDrug abuse and dependence not his, you can't throw the blame on him every time you don't feel good.  Your partner is there for you so let him help be honest tell him when you feel like using let him help you change your mind. And tell him if you've sliped up he already knows don't keep these secrets from him.

The above comment was not from the REAL afriend, someone is using his password..........

i can understand your ambivalence in committing totally to quitting drugsChemical dependence - resources
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good luck,



amber

I used to say every day... OK.. Tomorrow i will stop!  So then i would use tons for one last blast.   WEll i realy believed i would stop.. after all i was competant all my life at setting goals, etc.  WEll guess wut, the next day it was the same ****......................................................... for years!  I continued to believe that each day was my last and wammo...the next day i believed it too ad infinitum.  My disease was so crafty with my mind... i was insane!

In regards to your partner, familyBirth control and family planning
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Family troubles - resources. etc.  I was told by many recovering addicts (as i was strugglin with the same issue) that it can taek years for them to really get it once i am clean.  Prolly Only addicts can really understand addictionDrug abuse and dependence..but for a few very brilliant others in this world.  Groups such as AlAls - resources
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Best hopes for your recoveryRecovery position - series!

"LOve is all we need."

Suzie

I didn't make it quite clearClear by design
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uninsured addicts to get help. (It's usually court ordered.)  I've been blessed enough to have not been in trouble with the law. I got the information from my states DrugChemical dependence - resources
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I spoke to someone from the program and filled out an application and I qualified for help! I will go on June 17th to

be evaluated and "take it from there" as to what to do about me. I waited for a little over a week for an answer form them which is what I ment when I said that I'm hoping to get to get "help soon" In the mean time,(17 days) I'll do what I can to at least maintain myself. Anyways, my boyfriend is still looking for answers as to the understanding of drugChemical dependence - resources
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Drug-induced hypertension addictionDrug abuse and dependence. Mainly, "how did this happen? and WHY?. And what can he do to be there for me without being sarcastic?"  He (being VERY strong willed) is just not getting it!But is trying his very best to be patientKidney diet - dialysis patients with me.

I don't want to lose him and have tried my best to let him know what's going on with me. Again, I'm asking for help from those who have been there (and those who still are) to give some input to the mind and thoughts of a chemicaly dependant person. I'm sure I'll be posting again soon.  In the mean time, words of support would be great!  WISH ME LUCK FOLKS!

Maybe I can put a different slant on this.  I am not an addict, never have been. My husband has fought the demons of HeroinDrug abuse and Methadone before we were married, and now 24yrs later, percocetPercocet 10/650 has been his battle. He's been in pretty deep for the past 18 mos, and we're now on week 3 of CTAbdominal ct scan
Ascites with ovarian cancer, ct scan
Bronchial cancer - ct scan
Cholecystitis, ct scan
Cranial ct scan
Ct scan
Ct scan of the brain
Hemangioma - ct scan
Hepatocellular cancer, ct scan
Intracerebellar hemorrhage - ct scan
Kidney and liver cysts - ct scan. I try very hard to understand. I think I am a wee bit more patientKidney diet - dialysis patients than you partner, but I think our thoughts might be along the same line. I hate to see my husband suffer, but part of me gets angry that he let this stuff backBack pain - low
Back strain treatment in our lives.  I live in dread of returning to the post meth days of years ago. I'm terrified when the phone rings that there's someone who wants to coax him into buying a few more pills.  I'm grateful our 18yr old daughter moved into her own place 6months ago. I don't want her to see her Dad like this. But- I don't think he's aware of any of this, and if he is the haze provents any emotional reactionAllergic reactions
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Tears plus of frustration, or occasional rants. (I had a wonderful post from Curt Cobain last week that agreed with that thought.)

As much as your partner loves you, he's probably blaming you for stuff right now without even realizing it. Just like you have to move from stage to stage within the WD cycle, he (and I) have to do the same with ourselves. We can't let ourselves accept this- its just wrong to us, we can't quite put ourselves in your shoes, but stay strong, we'll all get thru this I hope. If you need to rant a bit, feel free, I'd love to "talk". ***@****