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More of a vent than a question posted here - I have been with this site now for 2 weeks - and it has truly helped me. Truly.
Just some background - I've been on hydro since 2001 for back pain and migraines - the most I've ever taken in a day was 6-7 - but it has been for a long time. In b/w that time, we've moved, I became preggo - and while preggo took the dose that was ACTUALLY prescribed.
My NEW OB (I've had for 2 months now) - has been treating me like a criminal. I do have a legit script - and did not hide that from him - but I did not tell him that I was taking every day. Nobody knows that but me. Unfortunately, I cannot change doctors at this late stage. (nobody will take a 36/37 week preg NEW patient)
What is the worst is that he started tox screening my urine - w/o telling me. I realized he was doing it last visit. Well - tomorrow, is another checkup. And I'm sure he'll screen me again and make some comment and be rude. I hate the feeling, and it is REALLY stressing me out. I wake up feeling like a** - and worried.
The good side to all of this is that - since this pregnancy - I was at 5-6 pills day, and then decreased to 4 a day - and now 5mg every 24 hours. It hasn't been easy - but I look at that as the blessing.
My fear is tomorrow, I'll go back in - and he'll be an a**- I'll get screened again - and I just want to be clean! I worry what all my worrying has done to the baby. It is a vicious cycle. I plan to take one hour at a time, stay clean for the appt tomorrow - and go from there.
Thanks for reading my vent =-I'll keep folks posted
Just some background - I've been on hydro since 2001 for back pain and migraines - the most I've ever taken in a day was 6-7 - but it has been for a long time. In b/w that time, we've moved, I became preggo - and while preggo took the dose that was ACTUALLY prescribed.
My NEW OB (I've had for 2 months now) - has been treating me like a criminal. I do have a legit script - and did not hide that from him - but I did not tell him that I was taking every day. Nobody knows that but me. Unfortunately, I cannot change doctors at this late stage. (nobody will take a 36/37 week preg NEW patient)
What is the worst is that he started tox screening my urine - w/o telling me. I realized he was doing it last visit. Well - tomorrow, is another checkup. And I'm sure he'll screen me again and make some comment and be rude. I hate the feeling, and it is REALLY stressing me out. I wake up feeling like a** - and worried.
The good side to all of this is that - since this pregnancy - I was at 5-6 pills day, and then decreased to 4 a day - and now 5mg every 24 hours. It hasn't been easy - but I look at that as the blessing.
My fear is tomorrow, I'll go back in - and he'll be an a**- I'll get screened again - and I just want to be clean! I worry what all my worrying has done to the baby. It is a vicious cycle. I plan to take one hour at a time, stay clean for the appt tomorrow - and go from there.
Thanks for reading my vent =-I'll keep folks posted
Hey Girl!
Well - here's how it went....he treated me like **** as he usually does (as did his nurses) - the first thing they had me do was pee in a cup - DUH! No explanations, or reasons why - but it wasn't just to test my sugar or protein!
So - I waited. Then when I saw him - I told him, look, I do take pain meds, I'm not taking a lot - 5-10mg a day - and then he asked where did I get my meds. I told him (b/c I DO have a legit script) - and he asked me to bring them in so he could destroy them - and then he could write scripts for this state - and monitor my intake.
That was it. I wanted to ask more - but he was swamped today - more such as the baby, etc.....but I think with him knowing - I'm not nearly as worried - and he didn't seem all that concerned. I think he was worried that I was taking much more than I was.
From what I've been reading and researching - I cannot quit now. The w/ds that I feel - the baby feels even more in utero. It is possible for him to have w/ds once he is born - but it is less risky to wait and then get off the stuff.
ALSO - I found a clinic - that if I cannot do this on my own - I will go to this place - post partum. I am VERY excited about all of this - as I want to be done with this junk.
Thank you for your care and concern....the only reason I have not emailed you is b/c my hubby and I share a joint email acct - and he does not know I take every day. He knows I have a script for meds, and that I take at least once a week - 30mgs. But he does not know to what extent I am tormented by all of this. I could never share that with him. Not like I have shared with you.
Thank you again - thank you so much for being there for me. I wish I could do more for you!!!!
Thank you again - T
Well - here's how it went....he treated me like **** as he usually does (as did his nurses) - the first thing they had me do was pee in a cup - DUH! No explanations, or reasons why - but it wasn't just to test my sugar or protein!
So - I waited. Then when I saw him - I told him, look, I do take pain meds, I'm not taking a lot - 5-10mg a day - and then he asked where did I get my meds. I told him (b/c I DO have a legit script) - and he asked me to bring them in so he could destroy them - and then he could write scripts for this state - and monitor my intake.
That was it. I wanted to ask more - but he was swamped today - more such as the baby, etc.....but I think with him knowing - I'm not nearly as worried - and he didn't seem all that concerned. I think he was worried that I was taking much more than I was.
From what I've been reading and researching - I cannot quit now. The w/ds that I feel - the baby feels even more in utero. It is possible for him to have w/ds once he is born - but it is less risky to wait and then get off the stuff.
ALSO - I found a clinic - that if I cannot do this on my own - I will go to this place - post partum. I am VERY excited about all of this - as I want to be done with this junk.
Thank you for your care and concern....the only reason I have not emailed you is b/c my hubby and I share a joint email acct - and he does not know I take every day. He knows I have a script for meds, and that I take at least once a week - 30mgs. But he does not know to what extent I am tormented by all of this. I could never share that with him. Not like I have shared with you.
Thank you again - thank you so much for being there for me. I wish I could do more for you!!!!
Thank you again - T
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