Vicaddict,I just wanted to say I'm so thankful for your complete honesty and openess in your post here.Just having someelse to relate to when I always feel so alone in my own world,well,I just can't explain how it makes me feel.Your struggle feels like my struggle,and when you conquer this mountain(which is quickly turning into a hill and is getting smaller by the day)and are victorious I'm going to be so proud and happy for you.I've read every one of your posts and you along with alot of other wonderful people here,well,I feel like I know you like family.No matter how things turn out for you Vicaddict, you can always know that this place will ALWAYS be here for you AND me,even if we screw up again and again and even if you overcome this battle.And beleive me,unfortuanately I can't say that much for my blood-relatives.Now that I've found this site,I don't know what I would do without it.Thank you so much and everyone else here. Skyy321