Dear Gipsee, LS, Bugzz, Matine, Scarlet, spklng amber, Orangefyre, Everyone;
The title on this one "Intelligence is..." comes from a book on how to repair your character traits written about 900 years ago!  I doubt they had the full range of painmurderers that we do now...  I don't know why I keep trying to write here except that I'm addicted!  I don't think I'm really helping anyone else, and maybe because of the time difference not really getting much direct answers... getting sicker all the time which seems to include sick of myself- I was miraculously saved a few years ago (after already being an addict for more'n a decade) when they discovered I had 100%,85%, and 35% blockages in 3 of the 4 bloodpipes to me heart-Doc said if the other part of the heart hadn't taken over, I'd already be up with "guys wearing white wings or whatever you believe in" were his words... Did it really scare/affect me in a lasting way? No of course not tho I'm sure it had to do with addiction somehow since I'm non-smoking, no diabetes, normal cholesterol (high tryglycrds tho) was under 50 at the time(!) moderately active (carrying sleepin kids to their beds or bags of groceries upstairs)) My latest "plan" is to get this doc to help me with a script for Oxy 20's that somebody else will hold for me - one in the am, one in the pm and that's it!  Once I'm set with that, I'll taper - or if I function well and am not in too much pain maybe I should just hold awhile - at least there's no tylenol... I'm so sick and so tired, Have a good night all, thanks for reading this  love, Nefesh