I'm so embarrassed I could hide for a few years. I noticed just now that when I replied to you yesterday, I said your grandmother instead of your mother, which would have been correct. Please forgive me. I read every word of your posts, and that's why it's bothering me so badly. Think I'll go crawl under a rock now. ((((((((((hugs))))))))) LS

Hi nefresh,

It was good to see your post. I hope by tomorrow the antibiotics have taken a big step towards making you feel better. Don't worry. We will always be here to support you. You are kind to everyone and I think sometimes you forget to take care of yourself. All I have to do is read your words, and I feel better. Words have so much power. Don't rush, but I'm looking forward to hearing how you're doing with your pills, but it's next to impossible to detox while you're sick and run down, so I think you're right in waiting.

About my nickname. I love to be outdoors. If it was possible, that's where I would be every day. However, our winter's don't allow that. In the spring, summer, and fall, and the end of the day (about sundown)I take my journal and go to my special place. I live on three acres of land, and there is a hill on my property that I sit on to write in my journal. When I finish, I watch the sun go down in the west. It's amazing how beautiful it can be, and also how fast it goes down and becomes dark. I wish there was a way I could make it last longer. That's why I chose this nickname.

Paintings of the sun setting have always been my favorites. I have one on my wall, not far from my computer. I'm sure you treasure your grandmother's paintings, and it's a shame you can't share one with us. Painting is a talent I envy, but something I just can't do. I'm doing good to stay in the lines in a coloring book. lol

Please take care and remember that we will be right here for you when you come back. You are missed.

Rest and get well please. I will check the board off and on for your next post. I'm not sure how far we are into the 32 hours right now. lol

Hugs and Prayers...LS

I've been reading and reading your post.   Sometimes they are way way over my head... it's easy to see you are a very, very deep person.

Truly, I don't know your story, and I suppose I don't need to know... I only wish there was some way I could help you.

I guess Sunday holds some significance on telling your usage and pill plight...

Can I ask you... is there any way you can seek the professional help of your Dr. to get out of your mess?   Any professional...maybe even a Social worker ... anyone who can understand?

Sometimes our individual problems seem bigger than life, but when we have someone next to us who can truly help or listen and understands it makes it a bit easier to muddle through sorting the whole thing out.

One day at a time, one step at a time.   We all deserve to be free of drug abuse.  I wish you well

Gip