May I ask a sensitive question...
What happened? How did you brother die?
If it is too sensitive for you, just don't answer.
We are glad that you feel comfortable with us. We will not judge you, and will respect your wishes.
Lisa
I do see how you feel stuck. I don't think that you being stuck is good for you or your parents in the long run. It does sound like you have all had enough pain. I hope you can go to a counselor and get one on one counseling. Most communities have free counseling. I would get myself on their waiting list. Many churches can also guide you, some offer counseling. You could make an appt. with the Pastor, Minister, Preist,church secretary, alot of them have a counseling background or could direct you. Pick up the phone or visit one of these places that could help you out. After the loss of a loved one, things can never be exactly the same. But, you can and should move on. You deserve to be happy. You are so young and have a great life ahead of you. Maybe with counseling your parents could see that they can have joy through you. The best joy for them would be to see you getting healthy and happy. Don't wait to make an appointment. Please do this on Monday.