I feel ya. The weather kills me, well it feels like it is gonna kill me. I too suffer from a chronic pain syndrome, hence my name..RSD.
I have been clean from pain meds now about 23 days give or take a day, since I quit counting =\
My friends and family have been welcoming me back to the family the last few days.
Went to a funeral, and all the stuff that goes with the funerals, real fun.....NOT! lol
Anyways, everyone I ran into was commenting on the old me as being back. You never know how the body might react once it gets used to not having pain meds. You might find that the pain is not as bad as you would think, because the pain meds will cause pain just to remind you to take some pills.
I will keep you posted on this, because that is what im going to find out. It is grrrrrreat gaving my mind back, as I didnt realize how dummy down my mind was. Maybe your dad knows??
Well take care, and try not to get tooo upset.
Allen
Sometimes after long term opiate use for pain, legit pain... we just have to get clean to take a step back ... just to re-evaluate the pain level.
Don't we scared of W/D....You will be sick for a few Days... once you are off your drugs... you may realize even if it is only for a little while, that a few advil might just help to alleviate all that pain.
You are young... living a life on pain killers is a long road... you always need more to feel better ..or something stronger, and can always managed to do less on more drugs and it's a never ending cycle.
Give yourself time to get clearheaded... and then you can evaluate along with your DAD exactly what you need to do to get into some pain management.
Hope it all works out for you
Gip
Hi and welcome! Your question offered great insight into your medical conditions and subsequent treatments as well as your father's 'take' on this. As you are an adult, I am just wondering how YOU feel about the prospect of getting off them. (Meaning, we are ALL scared of w/d for sure but do you, at this time, want to stop?) How can we support YOUR feelings and choices? Hugs!
In response to my beloved new friend Gip (grin), I agree. I don't wanna sound bossy but I guess my thoughts are this: it can't hurt to try, even if you want to go to an ER and a Detox.
(In fact, if you are quitting, given the extent of your use--NO JUDGMENT--I think it would be VERY wise--not just for discomfort but psysiologic responses!!)
Worse case scenario, you get clean, clear headed, reevaluate and proceed from there. One thing I do know is that while the drugs are still IN us we have no ability to accurately predict how we'll feel during w/d OR aftrewards based upon individual issues.
Bottom line: when I first got sober, I noted early on that, even if I spent the entire day craving alcohol and beingbitter about quitting, I could ALWAYS count of being grateful when I woke up--no matter what. That is, I knew I would NEVER wake up and think "Boy, I sure wish I had gotten sh*t faced last night so I felt like cr*p right now".
In respect to YOU: I can't imagine, no matter what you ultimately decide, that you will sit back (on drugs or not) and say "Damn, I sure wish I hadn't gone off the drugs so that I could think clearly. What a waste of time."
Does he know the extreme pain you are in? if he doesn't believe you then have him so to one of your appts with the pain drs. There is no way a person can live with the kind of pain you are describing.