Good Morning!! And may it truly be a good morning and a good day for all!! Today is D-Day for me (C/T Thomas Recipe)... final dose right now so that I can last until I have myself quarantined safely (!) away to hopefully, God willing, weather the worst of the storm before attempting to rejoin humankind... I will of course have constant access to my laptop and a few folks will know where I am... but basically this is it... after weeks and weeks of wondering and waiting, planning and pondering, oohing and ahhing, (taper or c/t??), reading your posts, and of special note; the communication with a great person "met" here, it's time for the high dive (funny word! fits right... the highest of the highs (getting clean, please God!) with the lowest of the lows (the dive off the cliff, the physical and emotional um, er, ah... less than delightful (let's call it)... anyhue, it's off I go, and I'm so nervous I'm already sweating up a storm and can't talk to anyone (afraid I might start barking!)... it's been over 20 years of gradually increasing doses (mostly darvon w/tylenol, codeine, some percs) and I ain't no spring chickadee anymore... but lately getting the feeling that I might not have so many more chances left - already used up about ten of my nine lives... and I'm no cat!
I'll be on here a lot in a day or so when it starts getting sticky... hopefully writing but at least reading... thank you for helping me get this far... with dread and awe, fear and loathing, and just a hint of dawning hope's sweet song to rock my soul... Nefesh