Day 10....I feel weird...

Question

I just got back from my first meeting ever with a therapist. I'm on day ten, or day 1 because I screwed up last night and on days 5 and 6. I feel ok for the most part but mt anxiety is pretty bad. I feel so nervous and scared all the time. I get so nervous about how my day is going to go, whether or not i'll have enough energy to deal with the kids or not. My husband is working 2 jobs this week si its just  me and the kids until this weekend. He wont get home until after bedtime. 
I'm having a hard time cutting oxy's completely out of my life. I'm trying a vitain regimin but I'm nervous about taking any herbal supplements because I'm on paxil and I'm not sure how herbs will interact with it. I have .5mg of ativan but it doesnt really do much and taking 2or 3 makes me extremely tired...... i find it strange that the oc's gave me all the energy I needed to handle 2 kids, school , family and work.......

mobiius · Answer

I'm the same way with opiates.  They make me feel the way I think I should feel.  I am far more productive at work, friendlier and more outgoing.  When I'm off them, I'm irritable, unmotivated, and feel run down.

oxysbliss · Answer

I kinda hear ya...at least that is how they made me feel in the beginning...and then later as moer use went on..I found myself getting more and more irriatable...untill I just never smiled when I was high anymore...and really I didnt..I would get quiet and withdrawn.....It may have had alot to do with who I was around..but either way..it scared me...

I have always been a happy go lucky kinda girl...hence bliss, a high school nickname....Ive always been happy no matter what...and those pills made me mean looking...and mean sounding.....and I didnt like that...I guess it was just my experience......

I dont know what else to do other tahn just try and live out life day to day...I am really lucky I dont have to look after children...well considering my situation I wouldnt call it luck....however...its the case.....and I dont have a job to go to everyday...because its here...lol..I work at home.....and really it isnt anything spectcular.....

Well try and have yourself a great day!! I am trying too...with little success however I will not let that defeat me today...

Day 10....I feel weird...

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