my saying to myself is always "BABY STEPS" and we all have that same fear i think, your not alone
Hey better I'm older than most on this site and one thing that I have learned have bad years and the really bad thing is it takes two good yrs to make up for one bad one.
While addicted drugs are your only choice, but straight you have choices. Want to be happy than work your ass off to get it. Nothing good is easy!!!!!!!