Hey old friends (too numerous) and welcome new friends!
In my opinion, having been on the forum for about 2 months, the posts from 2/17...marc, grace, this BEACHTOWEL person (AMAZING ADVICE AND WISDOM)...are the most profound posts I have read.
You HAVE to check out the posts from yesterday..one person said "I have goosebumps."
That is what happens here. It is an amazing bond of so many people from so many backrounds...making the very same mistakes over and over.
I think Beachtowl really hit home with me by bringing up the point that I really am more afraid of RECOVERY than getting off the drug. I think I can do that, its living with someone I do not remember, its doing everything I used to do high, now sober...that scares the **** out of me.
One quote from yesterday...a husband being pushed away by one of us..."I don't have anything to lose, you have everything." I am scared of RECOVERY and not this lifestyle!!????!!!!!!!INSANITY!!!
Love you guys. It is good to be back. Thank God we don't have to apologize to one another for leaving, failing, falling...it's always HOME to come back.
P.S. I am going Ct TOMORROW! Not by choice, but as you all know the taper is not an option for creek. Yup, everything is gone as of today...have no idea of the panic I will be in tomorrow as I enjoy my last high today. Last high of a lifetime? Please folks, you know I do not have that much faith in myself. I'll let you know how I am doing though. I'll never know until I try.
Thanks for Listening today.
Peace~
Peace~