creek

Question

hey there, i've been reponding to your posts, but you havent posted back. i know your having a tough time lately. is anything wrong? please let me know

thanks,
tink

creek · Answer

Hell no, you know nothing is wrong here.  I am on day 6 but today is one of those pretty deep "relective" days and I just think I don't know what the **** I am talking about sometimes.  

What the hell do I mean when I say "when this part is over" see,,, that is the thing...I think this is magically (still) going to END and then there will be a BEGINNING and this will be the PAST...but I have no concept of the mean time in there.  Get that?

And who am I to say when this part is over?  I NEVER got through this part before.  I'm nuts some days,
Glad you are on today.  Are you in the snowstorm??

tink1517 · Answer

yes i am in the snow storm... ive detoxed twice before and really good for awile, and when i thought i could handle it, i f*cked up
i dont think this will ever really be over, the physical and mental will pass in time
but to be bluntly honest i know if i'm still clean 1 yr from now and someone handed me a pill, i'm 99% sure i would take it. but we're all different
you are doing so good, the rollarcaoster ride you feel like your on, is a good thing, cause it means your mind and body are changing... everyday your one step closer, sweety. just remember...BABY STEPS :)

creek

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