sorry...went back and read your posts...wow, what a day you are having...i want to hug you so tight...you dont want to hear the truth eh?...you WILL do it, you ARE doing it, and your GOING to keep it up...we are all here for you...go take a hot hot hot bath...you dont have to fix your hair or do your makeup...baby steps...and pet your dog for me...

see you tonight?...

love, natasha

Oh fuckin computers.  I just wrote you a pretty long post and LOST IT>
I will summarize now, because that UUUGGGHHHH gets me.  It is doing it again!

OK...Ya, it has been a fuckin day.  You know, just like the other night and yesterday.  The people here changed the course of my day.  I would not have made it through. A FACT!  I am not being dramatic.

I am overwhelmed by this family I have here.  FLaadict got right on the horn and bitched me out for giving up.  Someone new was right there saying they were in the same boat. and then CATUF comes on and talks about his RECOVERY and well, I could not have asked God for any more than the support I get here everyday.  I am not embarrassed to say I need you and you have saved my life.  I mean that to everyone here.

Natasha...you know this too.  As if you have been guided (and hubby) by hearts and souls here caring enough to share their past and present and make differences in our lives.   I am humbled.
Hope  you got my posts too.  Nice talking to hubby.Glad he came on...a bit envious of both of you.  AND PRAYING FOR YOU>
Peace~

i just told my mother whats been going on...and im kind of disappointed in her reaction...i dont blame her for the negative comments, because we have been down this road before...but i though there was going to be a bit more love there...she truly supports me, but has to let it sink in...

and you are so right...this family we have here has done more for me in 3 weeks than i could have ever imagined...i am so excited that we are on this path to recovery...finally...you make me so proud the way you can express your ups and downs...

just keep it up, thats what gets you through it...knowing how you are feeling, and not just thinking about it...

thanks for being here...and my prayers continue...

love, natasha