Hey it's Creek here, confused as ever about my own addiction so I had a hard time absorbing all the debates today.  

I am impressed by the knowledge and courage that each person has to speak their truth and beliefs.  I is a learning experience for sure.  

This family is sure appreciated tonight...another Friday night with Creek, oh joy joy!  I really need to get out more I know.  But when the lonely weekends come, I connect more than ever with the friends I have made here on the forum.

I have come to the aweful realization that I am way more productive on pills than off and it is messing with my head. I  have convinced myself that I am the only one on the planet that this disease won't be progressive.  

Does anyone know about the progressive damage that is happening as I waste more and more time CHOOSING RECOVERY?  You know, like that frog that just stays in the water as it gets warmer....slowly...and doesn't know to get out before he boils to death.   Because it happens so gradually?  How long can I wait to "hit bottom"  to "crash and burn"?  What does it take when I KNOW WHAT I SHOULD DO but don't do it.  

Thanks for listening tonight.  I read all of your wisdom today, tink...oh as usual, too hard to name everyone that MAKES this place what it is...a family (to me anyway).  Peace~
I am here to listen.  Sending STRENGTH to you in your battle, wherever you are in it.