Had to post this one, I just found out I'm going to be a grandfather again.  My son just called from Texas to tell us the news.

Congratulations on being a grandpa!  Your latest post gave me even more hope, I'm scared to death but know it has to get better, even though there will bad days along with the good.  Thanks again...

Congratulations!!!!!

Terrific! I quit smoking 4 days ago. I am using nicorette gum. I am so proud of us.  Addictions are awful. Keep up the good work. My attitude is that I have no choice, I can not go back. No matter what. Now you'll be counting weeks. I imagine that your withdrawel is tougher than ciggarettes. I have cried when thinking of quitting smoking. Can you imagine. My daughter is a heroine addict in recovery. She started with vicodin and progressed. Congradulations on being a grandparent. Looks like you are going to have a wonderful year 2007.You said that you feel more positive today. When my daughter was using she had flat emotions, she wasn't really feeling anything,which led to depression. She couldn't feel happy and really did not care about anything. After she went through the physical withdrawel those flat feelings lasted for at least 3 months. She quit using in sept 2006. She is just now becoming her old self as far as feelings and emotions. I am telling you this so that if those kind of feelings come on for you,that you know they do pass. I was really worried that maybe she did permanent damage to herself. She also could not sleep for months on end. That too is gone. Thank God. Just be real patient with yourself. Be proud of your accomplishment every day.

Thanks for the supporting words.  I am glad that I can feel the joy of knowing I'm going to have another grandchild without being in drugged out state.  I am gratful for another day being clean and will continue to work at staying this way.  I know when I start thinking I am over this, that is when I am setting myself for a fall.  I have to stay focused on recovery even more once the withdrawals are over and I am feeling totally normal again.  I hope this time I can actually remember to stay in recovery.