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I feel for you, & I think counseling would help you tremendously because of what you said about the aloneness, it helps me and no one would ever have to know if you didn't want them too.
If you're not ready for that, try going out in the evenings instead or on a bike ride or to a movie, somewhere where there is no alcohol. Don't worry, you WILL make friends in non-alcohol areas! And you will make it out of this, not only because you have us, and I'm sure family somewhere, but YOU have taken the first step to realizing that you have a problem, and that's the biggest, good luck!