You will make it!I lost my son to alcohol.everyday i want to numb myself one way or the other.I will pray for you.and remember you will see them again.please be clean when they come back.I lost alot of time with my son due to pills and alcohol.now i'm crying.gotta go.Bruce

I know the hole. I am on the other end. My mom would go on a benger and we would be pulled away from her  screaming and crying so she could get the help she needed. I will tell you, as the years go by, they won't remember much about it. I can remember staying with my nanny and having great fun with her. The initial pull apart is the hardest but after that smooth sailing! You just have to pull yourself together and do what you have to do for them kids. My mom, after all of the years, still a junkie. She won't admit it but she is. Get clean and stay clean. Feel no guilt because you are doing it for them as well as yourself. Just say, do it for the kids, do it for the kids! Don't be my mom at her age. It is sad. She was once so beautiful. Now, she shows her age plus 20. Most of her teeth are gone because if she went to the dr. for him to pull a problem tooth, she would get a script. I would hate to be her and look in the mirror and know I had done it to myself. I do want to say though, she is a junkie but I still love her. So, if you do fail your kids will always love their mommy. Just don't fail. "I can do it! I can do it!" And remember, my favorite quote, "This too, shall pass."

I am so sorry you are so sad. You will see them in two months and that will go by fast :0). Be strong and just think of all the fun and love you have had with them for the last 12 days. I loved your pictures snow tubing and everyone had such a smile on their faces. The children are adorable and you can see the happiness shining in their eyes. I bet on the plane ride home they were thinking what a great time they had.
Bless,
Mariyah

Tink, you're so strong.  I can't be away from my daughter for more than a few hours without breaking down.  Granted, she's only 6 months but I don't think that ever changes with time.  I applaud all you're trying to do and my prayers are with you.
The girls will grow up to be strong women seeing how strong you are in the face of such destruction.
God bless you!

you know you still have us to help in anyway we can.Look to the future and they will be back w/their mother soon. hope and prayers for you Clay TX

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Lord knows you need it..I totally relate to that empty feeling...I really get the remebrance of them around....its when the halls become empty.....and there is no sound......YOu know what though girl? There is a bright side to it...Its only 2 months...2 months blows by...you know that...You can do this...and girl....YOU CAN DO THIS CLEAN!! If you need me ever...you know where to find me....I love you...and hang in there...

thankyou for all of your support. :)

after coming home and posting, i went upstairs and cried, then cried some more and finally i fell asleep. i had a wonderful dream about summer and woke up to my boyfriend kissing my forehead and i had a (((SMILE))) on my face. he asked me why i was waking up w/ such a big smile, and i told him about the dream i had. (in which the girls and i were strawberry picking in the summertime) and how could I not smile after a vivid dream like that? :) so even though this is gonna be a long 2 months, i hope i keep having dreams like i did today,  cause it will make it alot less painfull.

also, they just called me and got home to FL safely.

i love all of you,
tink