Good Morning everyone.  I posted last weekend and really appreciated all of the advice and responses.  **recap**  My fiance' is snorting oxys, roxys and percs...... Anyway, he packed and left last week on Friday.  I have found out that he went tback to his hometown (6 hours away).  I think that he went there because I have told a few of his "clean" friends and they agreed to not lend him any more money.  I have also talked to his family members.  Everyone was aware that he was doing the pilss, but no one knew the extent of the problem.  He has called me twice, both time yelling about "how could you tell people that..."  still denying, even to me, that it is what it is.  I think he went back to his hometown because I killed his $$ resourses here.  When he calls, I answer but as soon as he starts yelling, I tell him that I am done fighting & begging him and hang up.  I feel so cruel.  Is this what I should be doing?  I feel horrible, I am worried and he doesn't give me the opportunity to tell him that I will be here if he wants help.  He is VERY angry and says that I am getting in his business and that he can't live with watching his every move.  I feel like a sneak because I do keep him under radar but not because I want to.  I am just so worried and want to help him.  I also want to be "aware" so that I am prepared for the situations that he constantly puts us in.  Please tell me if I am handling this right.  I feel like he hates and resents me and that is tearing me up.  I also feel like I have pushed him away and now there is no one that truly cares enough to make sure he is safe.