You have a true medical condition, but the question is, are you afraid?
I know the feeling. You hang in there, my dear. I'm 50 with 3 grown kids and nobody knows the real deal. I even "program" for a mental health agency". They all think I'm wonderful. But I KNOW things are seriously ****** up (sorry for the bad words.) If you are afraid, listen to yourself. LISTEN TO YOU. It's not easy, but i PROMISE you can do it. Just reach out for help. Now, before I go out on a limb, are you into a "higher power" or whatever? Believe me, I totally get it. Love ya, K
honey, if your in pain, thats what "pain pills" are for. i havent been following your story. but if you are in true pain, take your meds, your not letting anyone down and have nothing to feel bad about. only "you" know the difference within yourself if your in pain or letting your mind beleive you are. i know its a thin line, i walk it everyday. sometimes i find myself letting my mind convince myself i really hurt when i dont. then there are times i do really hurt. ONLY YOU know the difference. dont feel bad at all for taking your meds for true honest pain. no one should have to suffer, like i said i havent been following your story, but just be careful not to take more than your dr has rx you. good luck and agian, please dont feel bad, your not letting any of us down. this is a place for support and understanding, not judging :)
P.S. what's the "afraid" thing all about????
Sorry, guys. Lot-of-pain. At least for me gave a good exuse.
ccancer, blulgin disks,whatever, I guess I hit the bottom line where I realize I am very influence by my husband and the "darker"/""mooder" he gets, the more I go negative instead of "pulling out of this ****".
Thanks all...I was trying to quit my meds thinking it would help me not be in pain...But, after a week I couldn't walk and was in horrible amount of pain...I just hate to be on meds...I want to be better, but I should face the fact that it isn't getting better...My pain is getting worse...
Peace,
Norco687