Thank you all for your suggestions, and understanding. Yes the panic attacks or even the thought of one can be the worst feeling.
I really wish they had online meetings too, but then again if they do I wonder how successful they are. Meaning your not actually being there, but I guess that depends on the motivation of the user.
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Thank you again all for the kind words and help!
I don't know if you are male or female but some people feel more comfortable going to a "same sex" meeting. Your local meeting scheduled is coded and tells which type of meeting it is. It will have a W for women only or a "M" for men only (maybe it is CW for closed womens).
Hey there,
I personally do not have these issues, but I really feel for you. I had a friend who was in the same boat as you are--wanting to go to meetings, but fearing an attack (which, from what I understand, is as debilitating as having an attack). She eventually found it was the smaller meetings she couldn't hang with. So now she only goes to big speaker meetings, where she can blend in with a large crowd and not fear being chosen to share. Unfortunately that limits her significantly, but it works. Thought I'd just throw that out there. Maybe for you, more people would be worse, I don't know. Also, on-line meetings sound like a great option.
I also want to say I was once with her at a meeting when she had a full-blown attack. I sat next to her, and felt her distressed energy and body-language long before it was full-blown, but had no idea what was going on. When it finally hit, I was BLOWN AWAY at just how horrifically debilitating it was. It almost brings me to tears to recall it. I feel for you.
Best of Luck to You!
--Athena
I don't know if I can help but can def. empathize with your situation. It is awesome that you are so eager to work at it despite the issues you have working against you. I wonder if they have any type of meeting online? If not, it sure would be a good idea, I know many ppl who could benefit from that type of setting.
Good luck to you and let me know when you find the solution that works for you. I know you will!! believe it --- achieve it!!! take care
love, M