Hey guys,
Haven't been on in a while, just browsing every once in a while. I hope you are all doing great. Welp, isn't it funny that your mind can talk you into takin' a pill no matter what the reason. "Oh, it's just one" or "Eh, I'll just take a few" or "my back hurts, I'll only take it til it stops" UGHHHH!!!! Anything to be able to get your mind wrapped around taking one again. Welp after going 13 days, I started taking 1 in the morning and one at night, saying to myself "if I can handle this without taking more, then I'll be ok", welp it wasn't ok... I think it was Wednesday and Thursday maybe? that I started taking up to 7 - 30mg oxys... when I ran out (and you will taking that many in one day) Saturday and Sunday were hell!! Today I feel wonderful again, got my daughter dressed, did both daughters hair (I never do these things when I'm on the pills, never wanna get outta bed in the morning, I get up just in time to get them on the bus grrr) brushed little ones teeth, and everything, made breakfast. Why the hell do I do this to myself? Why can't I just get it through my head that the pills don't make me feel better, that they make me feel like they will when I don't have any and that's all? Welp, I just wanted ya'll to know I luvs you all and don't take a pill, it's so not worth it, not matter what the reason, you always feel better without them instead of with them. Cinnamon, I loved your post, it's so true, natural high? you can't get any better than that with your little ones... Luvs you all, Lil.