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I DID SOMETHING
Alright, I cant go into detail............
and I really shouldnt.........so I wont...but I did something that is really unsettlign for me....VERY UNSETTLING...ITs basically giving into addiction..no matter how I cut it....I havent done anything as far as use..but I may as well have, I feel like an ass...Im struggling what to do about it....I dont really trust this board enough to say anythign........So Im not going to...........but its bugging me..and no one is really around...I have 2 kids today......NO IM NOT USING....but I MIGHT.......
im just ummmmmmmmm unsettled....VERY unsettled.........
Gosh I hate this hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate....
I knew it was wrong...I did it anyways, I have not really any use for what I did..but I did it anyways.....oh man.......
I hope telling on myself to some degree will help...........
but who the **** knows
I have to get ready in a bit..but will check this and see if there is anyone that has my email around...right now...I have to take the 13 year old to the denist again..........and Im leaving shortly.........
Im just going abit crazy...and i really need some help...
and I really shouldnt.........so I wont...but I did something that is really unsettlign for me....VERY UNSETTLING...ITs basically giving into addiction..no matter how I cut it....I havent done anything as far as use..but I may as well have, I feel like an ass...Im struggling what to do about it....I dont really trust this board enough to say anythign........So Im not going to...........but its bugging me..and no one is really around...I have 2 kids today......NO IM NOT USING....but I MIGHT.......
im just ummmmmmmmm unsettled....VERY unsettled.........
Gosh I hate this hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate....
I knew it was wrong...I did it anyways, I have not really any use for what I did..but I did it anyways.....oh man.......
I hope telling on myself to some degree will help...........
but who the **** knows
I have to get ready in a bit..but will check this and see if there is anyone that has my email around...right now...I have to take the 13 year old to the denist again..........and Im leaving shortly.........
Im just going abit crazy...and i really need some help...
Um.... if I were to write something like this I would probably be talking about Sex or porn or something tabboo like that... Oh well.... move on, don't beat on yourself because here is the REAL RUB...(no pun intended), Satan will tempt and then when you fall, he accuses you and shames you for doing it.... Just Move on! The fact that it bothers you means you are convicted and still in the running with God.
Hey girl,
I'm glad you posted. I know you are a spiritual person, so now's the time to lean into your Spirit Helpers and take a load off...You will be in my prayers, too. Stop struggling my friend, that's what this disease of addiction likes us to do. Be gentle with yourself. FOrgive yourself. Know that you are not alone.
Love,
Athena
Prayer: SPirit of the Universe, We invite you into our lives to help relieve our suffering around addiciton. Guide our thoughts and actions today, bringing us closer to a life of peace, gratitude, love, and service.
I'm glad you posted. I know you are a spiritual person, so now's the time to lean into your Spirit Helpers and take a load off...You will be in my prayers, too. Stop struggling my friend, that's what this disease of addiction likes us to do. Be gentle with yourself. FOrgive yourself. Know that you are not alone.
Love,
Athena
Prayer: SPirit of the Universe, We invite you into our lives to help relieve our suffering around addiciton. Guide our thoughts and actions today, bringing us closer to a life of peace, gratitude, love, and service.
The only way to beat temptation is to yeild to it. Fight it and your mind grows sick with desire for what it has denied itself. The key is moderation and equilibrium.
To find this you need a system and dedication, but it can be done with any drug.
Keep a cool head, no matter what you might have done or what you are thinking about doing, its not as bad as you think it is.
To find this you need a system and dedication, but it can be done with any drug.
Keep a cool head, no matter what you might have done or what you are thinking about doing, its not as bad as you think it is.
Look I dont care what you did. Get up brush yourself offf and start again. Addiction is an evil thing , cunning baffling and powerful, right now its doin push to get bigger and stronger but you r doin the same by coming here and sharing and tellin on it so its getting weaker. I have much love 4 u and alot of respect. If you have to , do recovery one minute at a time then one hour then one day. I have been addicted to cocaine too and I cant tell you how many times I relapsed and had to pick myself up and do recovery again. Keep tryin till you it NO MATTER WHAT , lots of love RBC3 xxoo
All that is alot easier said then done...
Im just really unsettled....and well.......I dont know.........
Im just really unsettled....and well.......I dont know.........
You go girl... if you have to give in.... do it in halfsies.... just do little and get ready to detox because it's time for you and me.... and don't go away from the good people here at this site!
Oxy...hey....no judgement here....I will be off and on today so email ok?
Luv ya....unconditionally!
Marcie
Luv ya....unconditionally!
Marcie
I miss seeing you, I know you have to be beating yourself up. I know that you say that you are in a unsettled place but, maybe it wont seem to bad later when you look at it. It always seems to look worst in the heat of the moment. I would not trust this board either, I am not sure what is going on here.. I dont think it will ever be back to normal here. Huggs and you are in my prayers.. G
You know I have a lot of faith in you and you're a strong person. I seem to be picking up that there is something else bothering you. I know that feeling and it has to do with trust.
You have already proven to yourself that you can do it, so trust yourself to do the right thing. If you need to talk I'm on until very late at night. I will be on and off until I have dinner done and groceries to put away.
***@****.
Be good to yourself....hugs....LS
You have already proven to yourself that you can do it, so trust yourself to do the right thing. If you need to talk I'm on until very late at night. I will be on and off until I have dinner done and groceries to put away.
***@****.
Be good to yourself....hugs....LS
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