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I barely even made it 2 days without giving in!  I though I could do this but I was wrong...so wrong!  There is no possible way I can work without these and my boyfriend can't either for sure!  He works in the hot sun on a bridge lifting heavy things all day long!  I am moving back home to Massachusetts from Florida in the beginning of July.  Stuff is too easy to get down here!  I never had this problem up north...I didn't even know anyone I could get it from.  Florida is like the land of drugs and its no joke!  I know that a change of scenery doesn't change anything but at least my bf and I can take time off before we find a new job up there.  I am going to call and find out about suboxone right now.  Is suboxone a lot easier to come off of?  Could I take it for a month and the just stop?

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dyblue · Answer

you did better then me and I don't call mysel a loser.  just try again when you can or cut back your doseage to cut back withdrawl symptons later all the best.

addictedtoloratab · Answer

Hon, stop it, your not a loser or a failure.  This is a very serious addiction.  Maybe if you have insurance you can try subutex or suboxone.  I know your a bartender and I know you live in florida, I know they dont like to pay or give insurance to the hospitality workers.  It has taken me so many times to detox and I am only on day 10.. Its one of the hardest things I have ever done or will ever attempt.  The thing to remember is once you have opened your eyes to the world of pills is they are everywhere.  I know Florida has a ton of drugs, but, look at this board, people from everywhere.  Once you used, you start noticing how easy it is to score, wherever your at.  Maybe you can give yourself a rest and start a taper that works for you.  You can do it,, It can be done.. Just give yourself a break, it did not take one day to become addicted, its going to take time..  Im here if you want to vent.... Huggs, Georgia

Bulldog81 · Answer

I just tried calling a place about getting on suboxone.  They said it was $700 for the first 3 visits.  Then $125 a month for every other visit.  Plus...about $200 a month for the suboxone.  Are all places really that expensive?  I mean...I pay a lot for pills but that is absolutely ridiculous!

wheredidmyenergygo? · Answer

The price does seem high however, its seems cheaper then what you said you pay for vics a day now.  I am new to the site so I didn't know what to say about you going cold turkey and working.  I didn't want to discourage you.  I felt as though you were setting yourself up for failure.  This is not an easy thing you need to schedule 5 to 7 days off.  Good try though.  You are not a failure, your plan was, this is hard

Yoda99 · Answer

Just because you couldn't do it this time, does not mean you are a failure.  Do you realize how many times most people have tried to quit their addictions before they finally succeed?  The important thing is that you want to quit.  So make a new plan and try again.  It doesn't have to be right this moment but as long as you have the desire to quit, you will.  You have been on my mind and just know that I am here for you.
Yoda

FLaddict · Answer

look at tampabaydetox.org they are 475 for the intial that includes the meds.. do it.. do it now..

Bulldog81 · Answer

I tried calling that # today and nobody answered.  I tried a couple times...maybe they are closed on Mondays.  I don't know.  I am gonna keep trying...they must have an answering machine or something

addictedtoloratab · Answer

I think Fladdict has a great idea.  I was thinking if that does not pan out then why not try to taper and then detox when you have a week or more off.  Maybe taper for a while and then get someone to cover your shifts.  I know it takes a while to detox, I am a total bear, I need time off work.  You need time to just lay around and feel like ****.  You can do it, dont just blow it off.  At least you are trying.   Thats more than many people are doing.. I know you are going to do it.  It just takes time.  I know I dont have insurance and suboxone is expensive, but, it is worth saving up some tips and then doing it and never having to worry about paying for these pills again,, Whatever you decide, you are not a loser,,, Huggs, Georgia

FLaddict · Answer

or go to the website and fill out the appointment request form.. also go to suboxone.com and get the list of docs and just keep calling..  I read on tampabaydetox.org that they were having trouble with their phones so fill out the form... do it.. I am here no matter what you need... still got my email and number right??

fishmeal · Answer

Hugs to you for being here!  It'a a great site!  I can't add anymore to what's here... you're not a loser or alone....GET IT DONE WHATEVER YOU HAVE TO DO TO GET OFF!  I have all but lost my family over this.  But things are looking up cause I am going to do something (inhouse detox today)

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