if there is one thing we here are all good at, it's forgiveness.  We screw up a lot, so your in the right place!  lol    Im sorry things are so rough for you right now.  Are u taking a narcotic now or something else that u abuse?  Just wondering because I don't think Ive ever read what u took.  Regardless, you can vent to me if you want to,I will be here for a little while, and I know in the morning theres a lot here that would gladly listen and help if they can.  Anything I can do, just let me know.  Things will get better, I do know that.  Do u have children?  work?  whats the deal with hubby?  If it is too personal we can talk about whatever....

sincerely,
tracy

Its many hours later and I came back b/c I thought a lot about what you said and I wanted to apologize for how I came back at you in the past.  Honestly, after the first few times, I thought u were kidding and trying to be funny.  It just seemed when anyone mentioned the internet a question from you would pop up - so I never thought much about it being someone hurting and really looking to not w/d or start a habit (dont do that), or whatever. I really should have given it more thought when I posted and I just wanted to let you know that and this.... Back a few years ago there were many internet sites that sent legit meds at a decent price and you got what u ordered.  However, this is not the case now and ppl are getting ripped off and arrested from what I have personally seen, heard from others, or read about.  Almost all sites now have been targeted and are either closed or will be.  If they are up and running now w/ things like lortab and xanax, I would be VERY leary.  They would probably send u some other med and prove u knew.  I personally believe that the "honest" sites, that sent real stuff via fed ex, ups, ect. are now gone and be glad.  I have read articles where DEA follow ups to someone's house and whammo.  I am just thankful that didn't happen to me and I stopped before I got tricked too badly.  Though, one time I did pay $800 for some ****.  I about died, and how do you fight that - you don't.  You live with whatever they send and I hear that mostly now, it is ****.  

I just wanted to say I was sorry if I ever hurt your feelings by responding and saying tisk, tisk dalmation.  Because, honestly, if I knew or even thought u were a hurting person, I would NEVER have done anything to make u feel worse.  And you may come back and blast me for telling u all of the above, but I do it because you say things are bad now - I wouldn't want them to get a lot worse, and the DEA at my door, would be worse so I shared.  Take it for what it's worth.  Im here to talk and listen if you want, just let me know..Otherwise, I wish you all the best and hope that things get better for you soon.j

sincerely,
Tracy

I think it was very brave of you to post what you did and it does help us to understand what's going on with you.  I must admit I am guilty of telling SillySarah that we are a group of addicts, all fighting our addictions and I didn't think it was right to tell people where they could get drugs.  I still believe that.  But I also understand better now what you are going through.  Tell us some more and we'll see what we can do to help you.
Good luck,
Yoda  64 days c/t from oxy