i am so sorry that u feel so bad already.  I know u were taking such a large amount and now.............its a *****, and the mental is worse.  I just hate this for u.  I guess the graduation is out?  R U going to tell anyone?  Get anyone to come and help U? Is the boyfriend over for sure?  Maybe he could help, he should damnit....

anyway, im writing this way after the fact but just saw it and got upset.

I can tell u that it will be over soon and if u read this, you are already more than 1/2 way thru the worst of it.  I will be thinkin and praying for u to come thru this quickly and as easily as possible.

call out if u need me, i promise, im watchin for u.

love tracy

thats it.  I just dont think it will be as bad as what u are reading.  It wont be fun, but just not AWFUL, i hope.  I also think our perception plays a part ,even if it is small.  When u are in w/d, small matters.  Now, I tell u this and I totally psyched myself up for the worst and just as i planned, i got the worst.  so, honestly, sweetie, i don't know exactly what u will get, but I just hate to see you anxious about it now........................trust me, I answered b/c u sound very familiar to myself calling out, but just wanted to tell u that the stress AINT worth it, and I know u were stressed today.  just wanted to ease your mind some and possibly get u to think on the other side a little.  
I really hope ur w/d are the easiest ever, but if they are not...I PROMISE U WILL DO THIS, BECAUSE U ARE STRONGER THAN U GIVE YOURSELF CREDIT FOR BEING.  QUIT BEATING ON YOURSELF, AND TELL YOURSELF, whatever comes and whenever....i will be ready and i will kick it's ass.  then come and post and rant and ***** and we will be here for u.  i hope that makes a little more sense, I was a little tired today and not making a lot so sorry.  goodluck, you'll do great

love, tracy

I made a post to medhelpmike on the first page.  It was to you too. I am very sick.  Terrible diahreahh.  I was up and down with it all last night.  I've been in bed all day today.  I'm glad I have this laptop.  I don't think I would be able to sit in a chair and type.  Anyway, thank you for your advice, ima

I think Mis Take's point may have been, that many pieople here have been taking 180 in 10 days for years, and survived withdrawal.  It may well be that any symptoms you experience will be quite mild in comparison to what you are reading on this forum.  I only wish I'd had the sense to quit when I was at the level you are at now.  Quit now, quit for good, - before it gets worse.

The struggle gets Huge, the heartaches get awful and multiply, the mental starvation, the dehydration of creative thought, becomes numbing.

You can stop.... please.

kipp