Hi Marcie
You are so wrong thinking that such a supporting post doesn't make any difference mentally, it makes all the difference in the world, I souldn't be doing this without your support. And you are a shining example (I know, I know, I have said this a thousand times) which gives me hope that I can succeed too.
It is 7:00 p.m. in Copenhagen, after a couple of days of almost summer it is raining, and I have just had a political discussion with my oldest son, who is in a phase of political anarchy - just looking at him you wouldn't be in doubt !!! It is fine, he is 21 and very idealistic and thinks he can change the world, which is great (just wish he would look a bit more normal), but he lacks the nuances in his thinking, but we were all 21 at one time (looooong ago). I guess I can't be doing too badly being able to engage in that, and the strange thing is that I have had a couple of hours today where I felt quite good (I still take mild benzoes to help me), but then I feel terrible again - the restlessness is driving me crazy, I can't get comfortable anywhere. I hope you are right and that I will see a change for the better - if only slightly better - tomorrow on day 4. Still I'm determined so far, but I can't wait to feel better. I told my husband this morning, he didn't say very much (I also toned it down a bit), but at least I won't fake a flu I haven't got and that feels good.
How are you doing? Still having cravings once in a while, or are they fading with time? And what about your back pain? If anything could make me waver it would be more of the pain I experienced with all the root infection/amputations, but fortunately I'm doing very well, which makes it much easier to quit, I believe.
Please let me know how you are doing, and thank you so much for caring.
Minnie
I'm doing really well for the most part. I still seem to get terrible cravings and it gets me a little down. This is not everyday and I seem to get through it. I guess it is the PAWS. I am at almost 3 mos with the exception of my slip a month ago but I feel a lot better about everything. I cannot believe the difference in our finances! I was really straining them with my online purchases! I'm so glad you have gotten yourself to this point! While I can totally relate to how miserable it can make you feel, you know that you are doing what needs to be done!
Keep me posted....I'm not here nearly as much anymore but I still check in and post when I can! I know how much I needed this forum and it seems like it is helping you and so many others! Be strong!
Your son sounds like a man with a strong mind....idealism is not a bad thing as long as it is taken with a dose of reality. Does he know about your addiction? My son does because I didn't have the energy to hide the w/d from he and my oldest daughter. In hindsight, I wouldn't change anything and would have told them again!
I hope you have lots of support....You can do this!!!
Marcie:)