I'm in the same percocet nightmare

Was on pain killers for quite a few years for pain management. I don't know about addiction but I do know about physical dependence and withdrawal. Have you tried to withdraw or ever withdrawn from percocet?

If so, and want some help with that, I can probably offer you some assistance.

I tried to tapper, I am down from 12 (10/650) to about 5.  As of yesterday I have no job, I havent had insurance and pay about 500.00 a month cash for PM and buy another 200.00 from "friends"  I havent gone a single day without them since 2004.  I'm haning really bad leg cramps on 5 a day and scared to go any lower.
700.00 a month on pills that dont even work is a LOT of $$$ to a single mother of 3

I'm just stuck.

I hate myself so much for this horrible behavior.   I am a mom I should know better.  In a way I blame the doctor he told me to take two percocets every four hours.  I started to take them to help my kidney pain.  My husband is tapering me off them he has a much compassion as the kitchen sink.  He never drank never did drugs so does not understand the intensity of this hell.  I feel broken that I failed.  Please help me tell me how to do this without rehab.  I can't take the time for that right now.  I have to be a mom first.  I am dependent on the percocet

BTW
I lurk everyday for about the last 6 months for several hours a day.  Looking for a magic bullet

I was on the 10/650 earlier this year the doctor took me down to 10/325.  I probably maxed between 12-14 a dAY.  Now iam on 8 a day my stomach feels like it is being torn apart I feel dizzy like I am going out of my mind.  I am taking the vitamins just waiting for some relief.  These percocets are my best friend have been there for me through everything.  When the going gets tough pop a pill when I am bored pop a pill when I am tired pop a pill.  I guess I am a pretty sick girl

Want to withdraw without all the painful withdrawal symptoms? I just withrew with a 90% decrease in symptoms. Write back if interested. You don't need insurance and it is relatively inexpensive. $40 to $100. I did it for $40. I wasn't taking 20 to 30 pills a day.

What is the magic bullet

Well, it's good that you see perceive a loss of control.  It's also good that you recogonize addiction for the nightmare that it is.  Many folks ride the illusion of control all the way to death or prison, being only vaguely aware that things are not as they should be.  

If you're anything like me, you're actually not LOSING control, you LOST control some time ago (if you ever actually had control).  I now know that I lost control back on a fondly remembered day when the pills seemed like a special, secret lover and everything seemed JUST RIGHT in the world.  But that doesn't really matter right now - you can ponder that on another day.

What matters now is that you get help - fast.  You are in the midst of  what they call a "moment of clarity."  You can clearly see, for now, that you're not steering this out of control monster and that being tied to it is a living nightmare.  That vision will fade if it's not acted upon soon enough.  

I ignored those moments until I was unable to even get them anymore.  I almost died from addiction and I would have, but for the love of someone brave enough to literally drag me into Recovery.  

My advice to anyone in trouble with addiction is to turn to those they love and say "I'm in trouble - please help me."  I was never able to do that - I was too sure that everyone would turn from me in disgust and simply declare me to be persona non grata.  I was wrong.  In the end the thing it was most difficult for my family and friends to get over was the fact that I didn't come to them - that I didn't trust them enough to ask for the help I needed.

So, go get some help - it's good stuff.

About three years ago I got help went on suboxen that was awful all I did was throw up for  good week.  I felt awful when I was taking it I could not wait to stop.  I have never bought pills on the street they were lwys prescribed by the doctor.  I should have been smart enough to say no to taking the percocet becuse I believed I would not allow myself to become dependent and I did.  The worst part of all of this is have my degree in social work with specialising in addiction how crazy is that.  I have worked with tons of addicts ana here I am an addict.  I am now a stay aat home mom

I contacted an herbalist. He has a mixture of herbs that he uses for this. He gave me a 60 pill bottle for $40. He provides instructions per where you are in the withdrawal process. I was able to withdraw using only one bottle. I had been tapering and did not have a new doctor after I moved out of state. I was about out of pills and dreading go through withdrawal.  Even if I got ripped off for the $40, it was worth the risk considering how much money I had thrown away on other things.

The best I can do is give you my email address here. You can email me and I will give you his email address. I don't like posting email addresses on forums because there is the chance of getting all kinds of spam becasue of it. I use email addresses I don't mind cancelling for things like this. I won't give his email address out on a board. You can contact me at ***@****.

I did have some insomnia, and leg aches during the process. Three days of insomnia and leg aches at night. Actually the leg aches were not excruciating or anything like that. Just bad enough the that I could not sleep. There was also some of that warm kinda' prickly feeling at night, too that can interfere with sleep and some fatigue, also. After going though withdrawal 3 other times these symptoms "seemed" like a blessing compared to what I had gone through before.

But anyway, send an email, and I will give his email address. Please do not post his email address on this or any other forum after I give it to you. How would you like for someone to do that to you?

I too am addicted to percocet. I get a script from a dr every month. He changed it for me to lortab, but it's all the same. Anyway, when I run out, I have a source who can get me more. This person gave me my magic bullet one day when I was in withdrawal and they too were out.

Methadone. When I'm out and can't get anymore, I get 3-5 10mg methadone. I wait until the w/d's start, then take one 10mg methadone per day for usually 3 days. You will still feel some of the w/d's, but nothing like going cold turkey (I have unfortunately gone through that several times). I keep some Imodium AD handy. After the 3rd day, the worst is over. You will still have some w/d symptoms after that, but definitely alot more manageable. Your willpower will have to kick in after that, but again, it's alot more manageable.

Methadone is apparently addictive, so be careful on how many you take and for how long. You don't want to trade one addiction for the other. I don't know why they are addictive as I get nothing from them except they help w/the w/d's. I guess if you took enough you'd get a buzz.

Hope this helps and good luck!

How do you get methadone from your regular doctor or from a rehab.  How did everybody hear about this magic bullet thing do you have to order it online

Well, since you say that you've never gotten pills off the street, I'm not sure how to answer your question on how to get methadone. I get them from a "friend". Maybe someone else here can help you with that, but by the time you get that figured out, you'd probably be through the worst part of the withdrawals and wouldn't need the methadone. For me, in my experience, they are to be used ONLY to get through the first few days...the worst days. After that, you have to rely on willpower, friends, this board, God, whatever to get through the rest.

haha THERE IS NO "MAGIC BULLET".  
Thats why I'm still here and still addicted.  I have access to 10mg methodone, scared to death of  it, will not take it.  I've seen wd's from methodone and theyre way worse than percocets.  I dont want to change one addiction to another.
I just want off of everything, I also get 120 soma a month.
I also have a degree, in Criminal Justice and up until yesterday worked at Child Protective Services.

haha...there is a magic bullet. There will be no withdrawals from methadone if you take them as I described. No addiction either.

I know. I've done it.

If one abuses them? Sure, you can and probably will get addicted. Again, I get no "high" from taking them as I do, therefore no reason to abuse, therefore no reason for addiction.

Simple, really.

I hear the pain in each and every one of you.  I am there too.  I am living alone with no one to talk to, no one to help me, and no one to lean on.  Somedays the silence is deafening, but even more than that is the pain of this addiction to percocet.  I go through about 300 pills a month and I absolutely hate myself for it.  I am sitting here right now feeling like the worlds biggest loser.  I don't know how to do this anymore.  I need help but my entire family thinks that I went off of these damn things almost a year ago so I have no where to turn.  At least no where without completely mortifying everyone that I love.  I am so lost in all of this.  Any help would be appreciated.
Thanks
Peete