How can one be encouraging and supportive if they truely believe they are being lied to. My live-in boyfriend (father of my 14yr old son) has been a heroin addict for the past 15 years. He has been to several treatment facilities but has always relapsed. We have only been together since last October. He was totally out of the picture until he was admitted to the hospital with endocarditis ( I was working as a nurse at the same hospital). We talked and after his hospital stay (45 days), he came home with me. I thought he was clean but found out he was again using. He is on probation for a crime he committed prior to his hospitalization. He knows he needs to stop using and says he really wants to quit. He sounds so serious when he speaks of it....how tired he is of the "game", of waking up sick day after day and living just to use. He is really a great guy and I would love to make a life with him. Sometimes I think that I'm just wasting my time fantasizing about a life I will never have then I get so pissed off for allowing myself to believe in something that may never happen. He had been on methadone for several weeks then weaned himself off. When I question him about relapsing he gets very defensive. I want to be supportive and encouraging but am finding it very hard when I have that nagging feeling that all is not well.
If you do not know what it feels like to take drugs and come off of them you need to be careful when handling the situation. You need to give him all of your support and let him know that the only way you can do it is if he comes clean with you. Don't give up on him just yet, there is hope. When you go to Alanon meetings listen to the addicts /family, friends of addict and gather all the information you can to help with your situation. He will be grateful when you are supportive not judgemental. Good luck...
Thank you very much. I really do love them advice i get. I just wish i could just yell at him to snap out of it. Its so hard. I need to be strong, yet i feel so weak and torn down. I have never heard of the meetings you suggested but im looking into them right now. Thanks!
I stand by what I said yesterday.....take care of you and your child first. Your husband is the only one who can decide that enough is enough and he needs to get clean. If you suspect he is using, you are probably right! Don't let him put this on you....it is not you causing the problem! Addicts are the best liars and manipulators.....especially to themselves. Have you thought about going to Alanon or Narcanon (I'm not sure if that is the correct group) but it is for the loved ones of addicts. If he asks for your support then by all means, give it to him but do not let him put the blame on you...you have to be strong! My father and my sister are alcoholics and when they were drunk, everything was my or my mother's fault....I actually believed this until I went to an Alanon meeting....ironic how I turned out to be an addict to in my early 40's and became guilty of the same behaviors as them....
Peace and I hope your husband finds his way back to his family!
Marcie:)