Hello folks. I apologize for disappearing - especially after the drama (accident) last week.
Some updated information - both my sister and I are physically fine. With the exception of the first two days, my neck pain is all but gone.
I have also thrown my script away - so I wont fall back into that trap - and trust me, I think I would right now.
Today should have been day 26 -- but I guess I'll count this as day 3. Friday/Saturday, I felt OK - but Sunday I started having some mild WD type symptoms - and I've had the runs ever since.
Saturday evening, I started feeling like I normally do around day 4ish. I went out with some friends to a movie, and I couldn't wait for it to end. I just wanted to go home. I tried going out with friends on Sunday - the same result. Monday, I got some excercise in during the AM, but was exhausted by noon and spent the whole afternoon watching TV.
Today, I went to work - and pretty much avoided as many people as I could. My physical stuff is mild - but I can't seem to shake this dysphoria. I'm not really depressed - I don't feel like I lost a loved one or anything, but I just can't seem to enjoy anything. I felt this way pretty bad for the first 2 weeks during my WDs, but had a few up moments. My 3rd week, I felt like I was getting better. I was able to be happy - but I didn't look forward to anything. However, this week I've stepped back a notch.
It's a mixed reaction feeling -- part of me wishes that the morphine at the hospital set me back to day 1 -- but part of me doesn't want to start the WDs over - expecially since it was beyond my control. However, I'm starting to fear that my WDs are causing some form of depression. I haven't read anything stating opiate use can cause permenant depression (I wasn't depressed before taking Vicodin), but I just don't understand why I can't get out of this funk.
Anyway - the lack of social abilities is what kept me away the past couple of days. I apologize for the negative post - I just wanted anyone that may have been wondering what happened, that I'm ok.
Have a good night all.