day 13? .. ish

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this is my first detox off pain meds (not sure what i was takeing as i was getting them from friends who had friends, but there were different pills and wafers small white round, small white oval, small yellow oval large white wafers, some were very 'good' some i felt could have been better/stronger) started because of a back injury and b4 i knew what had happend i have been doing this for over 3 years?

ive taken nothing for 13 days now, its been rough, really rough, but each day was a little better.

wierd thing is that yesterday i felt ok (even tho ive had zero sleep in 8 days)

but when i went to bed, my limbs started acheing again?

but i did sleep quite well for about 4 straight hours........................that is what ive been waiting for :)

i have been an active member of 12 step groups for 16 years (if we include the last 3?) and i feel like this is my second time getting clean, i had no idea how toxic i was untill the last 60 hours.

i was only useing the pills for pain reduction, no partying.

cunning, baffling, powerfull and patient this disease is............

glad to be back,

emilyanne · Answer

Awsome job on 13 days!! Keep it up! 13 days will turn into 20, 30, .....awsome!!

The pill dealer · Answer

I know the addiction I almost died. It only took me 2 months to almost kill myself, but I stopped cold turkey and thats what almost killed me. I took ultram 8 pills at a time. I knew  a Dr.s dea number and prescribed it to myself 80 pills at a time. I was trying to sleep one nigt and I had a dream of the devil. He was jabbing me in the heart with his pitchfork. I woke up feeling like my stomach was turnned upside down. I had heart failure. I had a heart attack and I was diagnosed with pansytopita a.k.a. cancer of the blood a.k.a. lukemia. There was a minister that asked mr if I accept Jesus as my savior that night. I thought that was it. For a high that seamed like heaven was going to send me to heaven. Two weeks  and 560 mg of morphine 560 mg of demeral 80 viccodin, 28 oxycodine, and 128 oxycontin later I believe I had enough. I was given a whole field of popy plants to fix my pain not my problem. 
Then my own personal angel saved me a Dr. took a look at all my records and decide to give me an antibiotic that is a common drug for A.I.D.S. patients. I woke up the next morning feeling like I had been prepairing for a marithon (not restless leg but better) I found my self  not wanting narcodicts but wanting life. Life is a high that you can never replace and the thought of loosing my life and the ability to watch my kids grow up out weigh the risk of being an addict. I have been healthy for four years now I do use pain killers when needed but I also remember to stop think and decide weather I need this or not. So you might of been giong down and you started your way back. The people around you will be back too. It did not take me three years to see what I was doing my body told me in two months. Respect your body and you will find highs you never thought possible. I also promise you will feel better. No drug will fix your problem. Only time can fix your problem. I hope you get some sleep. It feels so good to get some sleep whilest not getting high.

traveling woman · Answer

Hi, this is my first time to write on here although i have read so many comments and people's stories- I hope that I get some feed back as I am so in need of friends/people in whom Ican relate to . Im 45 and have been on Norco for approx 3 years now. I find myself taking some days at least 12-15 /day- I know that i have to get this under control- Iam a Christian and pray and have it in my head that TODAY is the day that I will start tapering off- And Ive been given / pharmacist a tapering program - But it seems as though when Im convinced that today is the day and Im going to do this - is the day that I find it even harder to take less! I realize that I have been taking them at times for emotional reasons i suffer from Complex PTSD and struggle with that. I have been told by my specialist that this is not the time for me to think about stopping and or tapering off- But you have to take them as directed- which is 2/q4-6 hours as needed for pain. But before i know it Im taking 3 at a time and on good days i will take 2 and time it to where I take them q 6 hours and then boom Im taking another dose in 3 hours etc. I am scared to death of w/d- been thru that a long time ago- and I do have heart disease and I know that I cannot ct it. would just like to talk - and hear your response. Iam having extreme problems with constipation and abdominal pain- i do have ulcerative colitis and that doesnt help. My dr. has me taking senokot-s and colace around the clock and I still am not able to use the br. Is ayone else having such problems. They think that I have a kink in my large intestine and They do know that I have a dead segment in my colon. I just completed a 6 day round of prednisone- which I dont feel any better- just dont feel good and worried about what they are going to find. Not only does the hydrocodone cause constipation but so does my heart med and I was able to get off of that one and still no better./ Look forward to reading your replies

justlikeyou · Answer

your in deep, there is a way out.

its worth it, its not easy, but you could have 45+ good years in front of you, 

or,

15 bad ones?

your call...........................

keep posting keep reading, you can get help.

your definately not alone.

fishmeal · Answer

Our disease is doing push-ups waiting for the chance to get back to the drugs even while we are clean...

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