i started to read the post to you and lizzie then i realized it was about something that happened sunday,,,todays monday right,,uh uh,,i try not to go back, my interest is in today. So how ya doin ? is it day 18. i tried the alchohol thing once and it worked for me about like it worked for you lol. i think the best thing your doing right now is helping others. an addict is an addict i know but drugs or not,,, men and women have diff. feelings. i cant imagine having the responsibilitys of a single mom and going thru this,or being married with kids and dealing with keeping the family happy,,cause husband or child we ALL go to mom but what about us. like a lot of guys i deal with that silly macho bull **** that says what a bum i am. its bad enough that i"m a physical failure and need pain meds but i cant even do that right,,ok i guess that was kinda a setup. i told you how you help people to make you feel better and then i vented about my feelings.thats what i mean though,i needed to talk and you listened,,ty,,in case ya forgot what i said yesterday " were gonna do this " gl tim