ok 1st day off methadone actually been 38 hours, i am feeling really bad -crawling out of my skin that is the worst so far except runny nose runny eyes and a severe headache-i started to get cramps in the backs of my calfs , but i took 2 ativcans and a valium feeling a little better,especially the cramps and somewhat the headache. i know tommarrow is going to be worse but today sucked, i may be too big of a baby to deal with this,i might not make it if it gets as bad as everyone says-can't do that.i hear they are worse then kicking heroin and i couldn't do that without going and getting a fix within 48-72 hours never made it past 72 hours, although my husband was always with me before sick at the same time and would judt leave and bring us home a fix, i kinda miss him now only because he is someone who at least knows me,understands what i am going through and can give me constant gopod advice-i know i told my famiily to not let me know if he writes but now i want to know and they are saying they threw his letters away, that really pis::: me rite off, i am a 33 yr old woman and he is my husband for 6 years i blame me for my faults not him.
thank to whoever read this, i am beginbning to think noone does really read these unless you are known on here and all the posts i read are so werid compared to when i came here a while ago 2 weeks ago, anyways i am sure noone is gonna read this even tho i really need a little encourage,ment
peace out,
Jenn