i am venting, first i left this morning-a little background, i have been divorced 6 years only to go directly into a relationship with anthor man-who is by the way a drug addicted-long story short, i left him when i decided myself to get sober, i got high for about 7-8 months, been on methadone for 6 weeks, only relapsed 3 x's in six weeks-not that i meant only just meant that is how many times i did dope, anyways i left this a.m to go to my sisters house because about 4 weeks ago my stupid ex man and i lost our house-and anything i got out is in my sis's garage like my blankets and pillows remaining clothes-i have no beds or dressers and i have to use crates and my bro's couch, so i did get a couch  and  loveseat,and kicking sucks on a couch in front of everyone, i took 3 ativans and i felt 60% so i left and went to my sisters house, grabbed my stuff, beddings blankets,pillows,my brother freaked thinking where could i be?!?!?!?and him and his wife think i went out and got high-not so if i wanted to i would have but what i didn't want to.ok i gotta go lay down i feel super super  weird-dizzy,ect.

jenn