I am an idiot. I have become a bi yearly drug addict. I was prescribed loratabs 5 years ago and fell in love with them ever since                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          
I have gotten sick probably 8 times in my life just from opiates. I am 27 yr male who has bitten off more than he can chew.

Anyway, I was doing great, then all the sudden my friend gives me a bottle of morphine 30 mg pills. They are purple with a m on the back. He gave them to me because he developed a problem with them and wanted them out of his possesion. Little did he knew I was an struggling pill user as well. He figured, since I smoke pot almost daily, I hope I dont offend anyone, that I would want them.

Well 25 days and 2000mg's later I realize that I have done it again to myself.

I am ashamed of myself, I really need to seek some long term help because I always get off the opiates and swear them off for good, then six months goes by and I eat pills again.

I am currently weaning off the pills and Im curiuos on peoples advice. I was snorting 90 mg's of morpine all at once a day receiving a strong high. I did this for 15 days. I ve been weaning for days, first 80mg's, then 70mg's down to fifty. Then I went to 20 mg's a day, which was pretty hard I must say but I still slept. Then 15mg's then 10, and now Ive been on 7mgs a day for three days. I switched from the 30 mg morphines to the baby blue 15's. I am now taking half of one of those. How should I finish the taper, I have one 15mg morphine left. I hope I am not pissing any one off because off my reckless lifestyle!





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