Hi all. I have been on ativan for years it seems. I can't get off of it am 36 now.  Stopped working and was just working on my withdrawl symptoms (and taking way too much, more than supposed  to). Popping like candy.  I just started klonipin instead thinking that would work better, it is not. I took 1 mg that I had and it seemed to help but now they are not working at all. bad batch of them? don't know.  I took like ten .5 mgs yesterday, i know bad. I feel like ****. I don't know what to do. Have always suffered from anxiety my whole life, but working with my therapist to deal with the triggers of my anxiety. Haven't been able to work much this week, but boss out of town so no one hopefully knows. Don't have much to do anyway. I am beyond hope about this already. I even drink with the benzos & my body does not react really.  I want off of these horrible pills already!!!!!!!!!!!!!    I am so sorry went on them in first place. My nurse practioner who prescribes me meds wanted to put me on Lyricia (a pain med) as a subsitution for the benzos, but I couldn't affford it (no insurance, I am a consultant/temp). Does anyone know about that drug? My dad says it is a class 5 controlled substance, my internist says it is not. I can't find much about it on internet for anxiety.  My dad was a pharmacist and just tells me to taper off the benzos, I have tried and works sometime, but I am under extreme stress right now as my contract at my job ends at end of June and I am so much better when I am working. Things also not going well with the boyfriend. I get really sick sometimes when I don't work. I have done really well at my job this past year and have a boyfriend for the past year as well (he thinks I have gone off the benzos as he does not want an "addict" as a gf or wife).  Anyone have any advice for me?   I know I have to start working out as that helps...cut out caffiene for the most part. What do I do???????????????????????????????????????????????? i am at my wits end. My brain is not functioning today after all the klonipin i took yestereday. Thanks!!!!!!