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nothing to be afraid of.

You're smart to realize the danger you're headed for, this soon. I denied that I had a problem for years, and drank, hiding it (or so I thought) from my kids and familyBirth control and family planning
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Family troubles - resources. I ended up losing a lot (licenses, car, job, etc.) I went to AA but to be honest, I didn't apply myself to it 100%. It didn't work for me, but I'm sure that's why. I have many friends who have been sober for years because of AA. For me, it took a serious DUI to get me to go to a Bible-based "boot camp" type rehab. That did it for me. Not the program itself, but completely surrendering my life and everything about it to the Lord. After all, He created me. Who else but He knows how I should live my life. And He walks me through every single day when I ask Him to. I never thought I'd quit drinking. Every day I had the attitude of "just one won't hurt". Every day. No matter what. No one could convince me that I wouldn't stop at one. Even though I never stopped at one. Each day I thought it would be different this time. Our minds are certainly baffling things!
I'm not suggesting religion or church. I'm suggesting surrendering to your creator. Some non-denominational churches have substanceDrug abuse abuseAlcoholism
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Have you considered going backBack pain - low
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It really is a program of change.  It is a life program and even though I am not at meetings anymore I still rely on the tools that were given me in NA on a daily basis.    Go there and really get "in" to it.   If it doesn't happen for you at the firstFirst progesterone mc10
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Don't worry if you feel uncomfortable, that is normal.  Addict or not, many of us feel uncomfortable going to a place full of strangers for the firstFirst progesterone mc10
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Keep posting.  There is an unbelievable life out there that doesnt include drugsChemical dependence - resources
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Welcome.....

You really should go into an alcoholAlcohol and diet
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It is not safeSafe driving for teens
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Surrender is firstFirst progesterone mc10
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First-progesterone vgs 400.  I agree.  We have to.  We have to admit defeat. Your initial question, "I am Afraid" is well said and a good start.  I do now fearFears and phobias my drinking where as i did not before and really got into a lot of trouble because of that.  I would suggest looking up and AA meeting near you.  If it is your firstFirst progesterone mc10
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I believe in Jesus Christ so I go to a Christian AA meeting.  I have tried not going to meetings and just going to church but got to drinking again and again so something had to change....

Give it a shot?  Nothing to loose but a little time and like they say in the meetings, "We can always refund your misery."

It's not all that dreary as I might be making it sound....AA people are a fun and lively bunch and you will be surprised at how welcome you are... many times it has been said, "Newcomers are the most important person in the room."  Becuase we keep what we have by giving it away.