Awesome post. Couldn't have said it better.
i'm struggling even to write this, as i feel i am in no position to even address this.. but i will keep it short.
no one here, unless they have gone through what you have, will ever begin to understand what you feel. i watched my parents go through it and.. actually, no, i still don't know what they felt. but i know what i saw. i can only imagine it's the worst pain anyone can go through.
get through the day any way you can. you can then take care of yourself - today, tomorrow, soon - because i imagine that is what your son would ultimately want. but do what you need to do today.
I am so sorry.
my thoughts and prayers are with you.
all my love,
mj
When my grandson died I was devastated. It took a long time before I was able to cope with it. As time passed the hurt began to lessen but the memory remained as strong as ever. It is now thirty years since he left. There is still a hurt there but nothing can diminish the memory. I thank the powers that be that I was allowed to know him, if only for a short time. Now when I think of him, which is every single day, I can see his little smile and his memory warms me in spite of the sadness. Remembering a loved one that has passed on is a tribute to his/her life. They may be gone physically but they are very much alive within us. I know where you are coming from and I know what you are feeling. Today, Father's Day, is when you feel the loss deeper than any other day. As long as you keep his memory alive, he will live on and will be with you in spirit always. Death is not the end. It is a new beginning for him and in time you will see him again.