We I am closing in on day 10, (somewhere I lost some time, I have been a day off for the past parts of 2 days, but when I looked at the calendar I realized i had quite on Saturday June a week ago not a Sunday) just 1 more hour before I get to it, because I took my methadone at 6pm every night. One 10mg pill, and had been that for nearly two months. Wow, can't believe how long this stuff holds on. What a terrible way to live no matter how it goes. Still there is no way back now, I couldn't take a pill if I wanted one, even though their are bottles full here, I have come this fair to turn back, now. I finally got beyond my headache with a little sleep, till I awoke burning up, and seeing red, literally. I mean everything had a red tint to it, it was weird, reminded me of my hippie days 25 years ago, and well, you get the picture.
Anyway, we are suppose to have some friends over for supper tonight, and I am wondering some things. 1) My wife ask if I wanted to have a bottle of wine with the meal. She has been so kind as to know that I need fruit, so she is making shrimp and fruit kabobs on the grill. (I married a great cook.) Should I accept or pass on the bottle of wine? 2) Am I being foolish by even trying to entertain company while going through these withdrawals? When we originally made the date for the meal, I was in Day 6, and things were looking pretty great at the time, of course things have went down hill for the past few days, but I am feeling better as Day 10 approaches. 3.) My wife ask if I was going to tell them what I was doing, or not. I didn't know what to say. These are old friends who have known me for years, and know all of the turmoils I have been through, but if were to for some reason fail, what would I say then? I know this might all seem trivial, but I sure could use some insight.
Thanks in advances as always, and best of luck to all,
Ren