I've been taking prescription painkillers for almost a year and a half now. It started when I had a wisdom tooth operation and was prescribed 5mg Percocet. Since then, my use has increased incredibly so much. I was spending hundreds of dollars a week; since I lived with my parents (I'm only 19), I was able to afford it. It began as taking just a couple of those to deal with the pain, which I couldn't get through due to a serious infection. I saved some for after I was well to experience a feeling of bliss that I had researched, and I enjoyed it very much. After that, I was asking around with my friends if anyone could find painkillers. As such, a friend of mine began hooking me up with a steady supply of 70-100 Watson brand 10mg Perocet ever 3 weeks. In addition to that, I began purchasing some Lortab's and Vicodin's off another friend. I would make a big purchase every so often, and it'd last me almost a month, and I'd share with friends, but before long, I was taking more and more myself, and not even selling any to my friends.

This led to me beginning to develop a very strong tolerance to the drug, where the point of a 10 mg perc wouldn't even give me a slight buzz, or if it did, it'd last maybe a half an hour. I never went as far as snorting or cold-water extraction, but I did consider it many times. After about 7 or 8 months of the 2-4 pills a day routine, I began to up it, and soon, I was taking almost 8-10 a day, easily, sometimes more. I wonder how I was coping with the 7500-15000mg of acetaminophen I was taking.

Anyway, this binge went on for many more months, and I began to find 30mg Oxycodone tablets with no aspirin, which made me feel a little safer as far as taking them. Those I was going through probably almost 5 or 6 a day. It was ridiculous.

A couple months ago, a friend of mine introduced me to Methadone. I did some research and read about how well it works as far as a detox drug. Since I was embarrassed to go to a local clinic and figured it'd roughly cost me the same to detox myself as it would at a clinic, I went with purchasing close to $1000 of it. I finished off whatever I had and began to attempt to detox myself.

I started at 30mg of it per day, and lowered down to 20mg later on, then dropped down to 10mg for the last two days. Unfortunately, I am still feeling the same withdrawal symptoms that I had before when I was fully addicted and would run out. The very upset, sickly, burning stomach feeling, the sleepless nights, the inability to focus, anxiousness, diarrhea, etc. All the normal feelings.

I'm looking for any suggestions as to what I can to help ease these pains that I suffer through for a while until I can at least completely call it quits and just be over and done with this whole damned thing. Any suggestions and I'd greatly appreciate it.