I'm making it through.
Last night was very rough; I don't know why. The past two nights before last were very good, I slept without a problem or anything. Last night, though, I'm lucky if I got two hours of sleep. It was very exhausting. My stomach was on fire and in knots all night. :/
I think it was due to the fact that I only took 5mg of melatonin, instead of the 10mg I had been taking the past couple nights to try and put me out long enough to overcome the sickness. If anyone has any information as far as ambien goes, I'd like to hear it. I've got one 6.25mg tablet that I'm scared to use in this situation; mostly because of the "backfire effect", which I don't know if any of you have experienced, but it's when I, at least, take something that normally induces sleep, yet instead it produces a queasiness and unsettling feeling, almost to the same extent as to what I feel in my stoamch now with the withdrawals, and not getting any sleep whatsoever.
I'm doing very well as far as self discipline goes, though. On my first day of w/d I pocketed two 30/300 Tylenol 3 pills just for emergency. I'm scared to use them for fear of possible relapse. I know it's nowhere near what I used to be taking; when I was completely out of my normal stuff I'd take almost 5-6 of those just for a slight buzz, so it was strictly in case the symptoms became too bad that I couldn't handle it.
It's not as bad as I had thought, but it's still rough. I'm praying that it'll be over soon.
Anyway, I'm doing well, and I hope everyone else in the same boat as me does just as good!