11 Days Clean

Question

I was on 8-12 Oxycodone 5/325's a day for about 2 years. I can say I feel much better and like a functional human. I am not arrogant or obnoxious like I was on the pills. The mental part is much harder to me than the physical. I would take the flu for 60 days rather than the rush of negative thoughts. But to make that clear I would take the mental and physical discomfort rather than poison myself again.  I know all of this will pass so I am refocusing myself on physical fitness. If I get stressed I take a walk or lift weights, taking deep breaths help also.  Good Luck to everyone and Thanks for all the help

chellew · Answer

keep your head up.noone can ever understand the sadness and misery and hopeless feelings we have unless youve been here.i know how it is 2 b so pill sick after  a couple days and all u can thik about is how u want to just close your eyes and die but then u know how just a couple pills will make it all better.it is a miserable cycle and its not fair.i just started suboxone 3 days ago and its like a miracle.good luck.stay strong

fishmeal · Answer

Great job J! please keep posting for all of here in need of hope?
best 
fish

here4all · Answer

11 days is a long time.  Seems like the hardest is over.  I was on Ultram and other opiets (pain killers) and just stopped 6 days ago.  I too felt the physical pain (hell) but am finding the mental part is much harder.  I can't remember what happieness feels like.  I am so negative in thoughts right now but people on this site say it takes a little longer for the mental to become normal again.

I'm here going through it too.  We are not alone in this.  Stay strong.  You're 5 days ahead of me.  Good job!

awakan · Answer

Right on "j" glad to hear you are doing so well hope you also along with the weights and walking are doing something to help with aftercare so you will stay clean for life. It is real real real important..a-wakan

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